MY LEFT SIDE

I WANT TO EMPHASIZE IT WAS VERY SM., BUT MY LEFT LEG & ARM MOVED VOLUNTARILY TODAY, & THOUGH MARK CAN’T FEEL MY LT. FINGERS MOVE, I CAN! THIS IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED SINCE I HAVE BEEN STAGNANT FOR SO LONG! I HAVE FOUND IT NOT UNCOMMON FOR THINGS TO COME & GO, SO I ALREADY HOPE THEY WILL WORK TOMORROW!

Aug 23, 2005

Today has been an exciting day! Already, Jenny has began to be more vocal in the past week or so. Instead of using her call buzzer, she tends to just say my name (which comes out as “Marrr”). She does the same for Zach and even told me “I don’t know” last week in a voice that I clearly understood. As for today, Jenny was standing on her tilt table and had forgot to take her hand out from under the left strap. It does not hurt her, but it bothers her. As I was talking to her, she lifted her hand out (about 6 inches up and out). Jenny was more surprised, but she said that she wanted it out and it just lifted out. I was not sure what to think of it, but as I was doing her exercises on her left side, her left leg was making very strong and distinct voluntary movements. Her leg has had some movement, but it was very impressive none then less. However, the true excitement occurred as Jenny was doing her exercises on her left arm (where there has been absolutely NO movement since her stroke) and she was consistantly able to volunarily move her arm at the shoulder and the elbow! These were not little, but huge movements. We truley have been blessed by God and we are so grateful and excited.

BAPTISM

MY OLDEST CHILD, ZACH, WAS BAPTIZED SATURDAY. I MADE THE PROGRAMS (SO I COULD BE AS INVOLVED AS POSS.), I PLAYED THE PIANO (When I am Baptized), MY GIRLS (JESS & FIA) SANG (I’m TryinG TO Be Like Jesus), & 1/2 OUR MY FAM. WAS IN TOWN. THE BAPTISM WAS GREAT, & ZACH SEEMED SO GROWN UP-HE EVEN HAD MATCHING TIES WITH THE BISHOP! WHEN HE WAS ASKED HIS FAV. PART, HE SAID BEING BATHTIZED, NOT BAPTIZED! I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT I WOULD SING AT MY SON?S BAPTISM, BUT I WAS ABLE TO USE MY RIGHT HAND TO PLUCK OUT WHEN I AM BAPTIZED, WHILE MY HUSBAND SUPPORTED ME ON THE PIANO BENCH. IT WAS GOOD TO SAY WHAT I THOUGHT MOST ABOUT BAPTISM THROUGH MUSIC AND IN A WAY ZACH WOULD UNDERSTAND!

B-DAY

MY B-DAY WAS 8/8 & I GOT MY COMP. RUNNING FINALLY, 3 FRIENDS CAME BY, DINNER WAS AT OLIVE GARDEN, & MARK & THE KIDS MADE, FOR MY CALE, MY FAV. DESERT WHICH IS AT CHILI’S. I ALSO OPENED MY GIFTS, MY KIDS WERE SO EXCITED, U WOULD HAVE THOUGHT IT WAS THEIR DAY! BUT FIA WAS THE ONLY KID TO TELL ME HAPPY B-DAY. WHEN FRIENDS CAME BY, NOT ONLY COULD I SIGN A LITTLE TO THEM FOR THE 1ST TIME, BUT W/LITTLE HELP, I COULD OPEN CARDS & GIFTS! LAST YEAR I WAS TOLD MY B-DAY THIS YEAR WOULD BE SO MUCH BETER. I EXPECTED TO BE ABLE, AT LEAST, TO BLOW OUT MY OWN CANDLES! TO MY DISMAY, I CAN’T! I CAN’T DO LOTS OF STUFF, BUT I CAN SIGN & HAVE A MOTORIZED WHEELCHAIR NOW SO I CAN SEE WHAT I WANT TO SEE!

MARK HAS GOTTEN VERY CREATIVE SO HE CAN LEAVE ME HOME ALONE, WHICH I APPRECIATE! HE LEAVES ME W/A PHONE, WHICH I CALL IF I NEED HELP & USING AUTO. DIAL, SPEAKERPHONE & A SERIES OF BEEPS TO ANSWER HIM, I CAN SAY WHAT I NEED! THE OTHER DAY AUTO. DIAL WOULDN’T WORK, SO I ACTUALLY DIALED THE PHONE! & MARK HAS DISCOVERED THAT IF HE HELD MY WRIST, I CAN PLAY W/ALL 5 FINGERS.

ZACH TAKES PRIDE IN BEING THE ONLY KID WHO CAN FINGERSPELL & UNDERSTAND MOM! I APPRECIATE HE DOES IT & HAVE HIM TURN OFF MY COMP. WHEN IT FREEZES!

Aug 8, 2005

Today is Jenny’s 32nd birthday. Birthdays have always been the most important of holidays for her, but she has really been playing this one down. As for Jenny’s progress, she has been having troubles with her eyes focusing due to her left eye moving alot. That makes using her lap top, with the speaking program, more difficult. On the other hand, her voice has become stronger. She can produce more voluntary sounds lately and does a pretty good “Mark” that sounds like, “Marrr”. This is how she gets my attention lately. I see much more interacion between Zach and his mom lately. Zach has always seen a little timid around her, but has started to talk to her more and want to cuddle more. He has even been helpful by giving Jenny snacks or water when I need his help. He is silly and they have a good time when he does this.

It was about this time last year that I flew to Austin to check properties for us to build upon. I remember that Jenny had very little movement and could not even sit in her chair very long. One of the things that Jenny’s mom encouraged was a property with a nice view for Jenny to enjoy (perhaps one of the few things she could enjoy). Later, planning house plans were somewhat difficult because I had no idea how Jenny would progress. As it turns out, the plans we made have worked out nicely and she has grown into a few things we had designed for the home and we have a few more that she can yet grow into. Obviously, Jenny does much more with her power chair and computer, so the nice view is a great bonus.

We got rid of our dog last week. I almost turned around when we got there, even though I am not much of a pet person. Ginger had been Jenny’s puppy prior to us having any kids. For over 9 years she had been a part of the family. For some time, we have been discussing what to do about her. Now that I am doing more on my own to care for Jenny and the kids, it has been impossible to manage a pet as well. We had been having problems with her and Jenny even felt it was time for her to go. The kids were sad for a few minutes, but seem to be doing well right now.