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Yellowstone

When I was in junior high, we ran the mile at the beginning & the end of the year, & since our grade was based on how much we improved during the year, I always walked it at the start of the year.  My dad saw me walking it one year, & I have never lived it down.  PE was never a subject where I excelled, so it was quite funny when my 1st long-term subbing job was  as a PE teacher!

Our family visited Yellowstone this weekend.  Given my history, I never thought I’d say this, but as my husband pushed me around, I got so jealous of the exercise his body got!  I’ll admit that the reason I first thought it, was because he loses so many calories that he can actually eat (I have to eat like a bird, since I don’t burn many calories…)  But then I realized that I actually miss the feeling of tiring my body, & getting sore muscles…but before I could have a “pity party”, I remembered that I found a  therapy in Nov. 2013

that does make me feel tired & sore…horse therapy, which started up again last week, & has left me so exhausted that  I can barely move for a few hours afterwards, & sore for days!  But it makes me so happy!  J

It was beautiful in Yellowstone, & we saw a lot of geysers, but I did not see even 1 animal, unless u count what I saw when we went to Bear World in Rexburg, Idaho! (Having double vision does not help me focus quick enough to see anything that is moving).  My daughter, Jessica, made this video after our trip to Yellowstone National Park  (any animals you see are from Bear World, in Idaho, which was the coolest part of our trip—the girls  got to bottle feed baby cub bears!): https://youtu.be/Tr9cgyWlcOo

 

I’m so lucky!

I recall how soon after my stroke, there was a day that I was  miserable, & in his attempt to point out how lucky I was to be alive, my husband mentioned how I’ll get to see my kids grow up.  I have thought about that comment several times, but I don’t think I fully appreciated that comment until now: I have always assumed I’d feel that way on their wedding day, so I was surprised how special this was…My daughter, Jessica, has always wanted to be a  vet.  Today she started her internship as a Vet Tech, I had a  flashback to the day she started preschool…she was so excited!  This was  back when I couldn’t move, & she sat by me, & just talked & talked, as she turned in her swivel seat!

 

Small things I am grateful for…

I‘m obviously grateful to Mark for countless things (most of all, for staying by my side & living in a way, so he can always be there for me), but as I was watching this video (https://www.mormon.org/easter/principles-of-peace/gratitude), & I wanted to express gratitude to my kids for some small deeds they did the 1st year after my stroke…things they may be unaware of:

Zach: When I came home from the hospital, he gave me a card.It read, “Gary the Get Well Gorilla wants you to getwell soon!”  Inside said,  “And you better do what Gary says!”  Zach wrote, “Gary says if you exersz (exercise) you get better.”  Whenever things got tough, or I was tired, I kept going, cuz Gary (Zach) said I should!

In addition, there was a morning when I entered the kitchen, & found him at the breakfast table, studying a Sesame Street book about sign language.  I was touched when he explained that he “wanted to learn how to talk to mom.”

Jessie: every night, she’d come into my room, pull a chair over to my bedside, sit down & twirl, entertain me, & just talk my ear off!  Such a simple thing, but it meant so much!  It was the brightest part of each day!

Sophie: She was so young (only 2 years old), that she did not understand (like Zach & Jessie did), that I could do nothing when she got hurt. So she would cry for me & want to be put on my lap to “kiss her owie better.”  I could not even pucker or lift her hurt limb to my mouth, so she did it…& somehow, I still gave her “magic kisses!”

Diamonds Are A Girl’s Best Friend!

If u haven’t seen it yet, this video is on my Facebook page that shows Jessie in my travel wheelchair.  It’s kind of freaky how much Jessie looks like me!

Well, last night, Jessie hurt her ankle, & the crutches we have are way too small—they are from when she was a little girl!  So, she has been using my travel wheelchair to get around…it’s pretty funny to have my “doppelganger” (twin) around!  Poor Cooper must feel like he has double vision!

But it’s kinda’ cool that I can help my kid out in a way that no “normal” mom can! It has been a struggle for me to accept motherhood “this way”—it certainly is not the way I anticipated my life to be!  However, as Dieter F.  Uctdorf said, “Sometimes we mistake diamonds on our path for ordinary pebbles … (but the) heat & pressure that our trials bring us can make us strong like a diamond if we remain faithful to our Heavenly Father.”

I have definitely “stubbed my toe” on what seemed to initially be the “pebbles” on my path, & later on discovered out that they were “diamonds”.  Being a “different” kind of mom is one of those “diamonds.”  Sometimes, I need  a reminder that those are “diamonds” & not “pebbles”, but if I had not been put on this path, I may have remained focused on things that I thought made the “perfect” mom, & had forgotten other ways that mattered. But this large new path has allowed me to find even the smallest “diamonds” that I may have missed if I wasn’t rolling down my path!

Speaking of finding diamonds on your path in life, here is an Easter video that I absolutely love:

https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/2009-04-14-none-were-with-him?lang=eng

& check it out the video on www.mormon.org — There are even more videos to watch during the week leading up to Easter, as you focus on one of the eight principles on the website to learn how u too can find the diamonds on your path, and find His peace in your life.

I did it!

I am so proud of myself!   When I finished dinner, no one was home.  Mark was just dropping off one of our girls, so normally, I would just push chairs in at the table, so our dog, Cooper, doesn’t get on the table & eat the leftovers,  before Mark can put them away…&, at 1st, I did just that.’’But I felt compelled to try & put it away…& I did it!  I put the food in a container in the fridge, just like a housewife!  So excited!U know, only my right arm & head move…that’s it!  It is amazing what one can still do, w/such limited movement!