Today marks one year since Jenny’s stroke. I was not very sure how to address this obvious anniversary with Jenny. I asked how she was feeling about today and she surprised me. She did not appear sad, but more of a empowered state of being. Jenny told me that she wanted to mark this day by sharing with me her writings, that she has been diligently working on, concerning the first few days after her stroke. She had worked so hard and wanted to have them completed by today. We have spoke little concerning specifics of those days due to our initial barriers with communication and reluctance to dwell on some of the more difficult memories. I have read her thoughts that she has typed out and I forgot for a short while that Jenny could not use her voice. Her thinking and writing style have remained the same and I heard her loud and clear for these few pages.

As for the last year- it has been a struggle for us all, but mixed with a lot of wonderful blessings. Jenny has had difficult days were she has needed to rely on friends and family to get her through it, but overall, I am so very proud of her. She truely has grown more than she may have without this kind of a trial. I am pleased with her physical progress as well. In the first days after her stroke, we were told that she would most likely die, or at best be “locked-in” without ever moving anything more than her eye lids (Depending on who we talked to, being “locked-in” was the worst thing that could have happened). I have seen Jenny’s scans and there is severe damage to the areas of the brain where muscle movement is controlled. I planned for a life of no communication, constant infections, and complete helplessness. She was to never be off a trache, breathing tube, catheter, or feeding tube. Heavenly Father has truely been watching over and blessing Jenny and our whole family. She surpassed what she was suppose to do and she continues to get stronger. I want to thank everyone who has been supportive in words, deeds, thoughts, and prayers. We look forward to another year, with even greater advances.

Our internet connection has been disabled for a few days for some unknown reason and I did not realize how nice it is to have the internet in Jenny’s situation. It brings a great sense of independence and provides a way that she can do so many things without the help of others.

Our whole family is slowly picking up more sign language every day. Sophia is most impressive and it is true that it helps reduce tantrums since she can sign easier than speak when she is upset. Jenny is the worst when it comes to using the signs. She claims that she forgets and ends up spelling out words. Of course, she has to modifiy some signs for her limited range of motion. We have lots of good friends who are helping with these adaptions, so we are quite lucky.

Jenny continues to progress, but it is not always in the same areas at the same time. Previously strong muscle groups show less movement, and other new movements pop out of no where. These movements are definately meaningful and do not seem to have any reason for coming or going- but they do cycle in and out. Her legs are getting stronger when it comes to supporting herself and doing independent leg bends on the tilt table, but have decreased in strength on a similar motion while laying on her back.

I sometimes fear that with so many areas to address, we are unable to fully work all that needs attention. It was much easier when all she could do was move her thumb and toes- but I prefer having too much to address than too little. Jenny has days when she is weak for no appearant reason. on these days, Jenny can barely hold herself up in her chair. The next day could end up being her most progressive ever. It does not make much sense, but I still look a the big picture and see continual progress.