Family

22 years is a long time…

The last few weeks have had some rough days where I’ve had to remind myself that “I signed up for this being human thing!”  I don’t usually get sick, but when I do, it can wipe me out!  This last one seemed to cry out: “You’re old!”  Sadly, I am! 

March 16, 2026 was my 22nd stroke-aversary. 22 years…that’s a long time!   (My son, who was in first grade when I had my stroke, is now close to the same age I was when I had my stroke – & now he helps with the upkeep on my blog & lives nearby with his family – my 2 grandkids.  See, I’m old!) 

Speaking of my grandkids, we recently went on a trip with them. We had so much fun!   

Back in February, my grandson, James, & I had our first “real” conversation: 

James noticed I had a band-aid on my hand, & asked, “Grandma, what happened?”  I said I got an owie & he asked whaț kind of owìe. I tried to say, “burn,” & he said, “A what?” & he looked at me while I slowly said “burn”.. not thinking he’d understand. But he said, “oh, a burn”.  This conversation blew my mind (it seemed too “old” for his age), but it has led to some fun interactions with James in the following weeks.  He’s able to understand me like 80% of the time, so I can interact & tease him.  Back when my girls were this age, I couldn’t speak at all, so this is new territory for me, & very exciting! 

A few weeks ago, I was preparing to teach a lesson about goals in Young Women’s (11-17 year old girls at church), & I had ChatGPT research my website, & help me write about my “speech goal.” Here’s what was written: 

“In 2004, after my brainstem stroke, I was told I would never speak again. 

At the time, that seemed believable. I had a trach and couldn’t control my breathing. Sound wasn’t something I could choose to make, and speaking felt like an impossible long-term goal.  But I was determined to do it! 

What changed everything was learning to break that goal into small, reachable steps. 

My first goals had nothing to do with words—they were about breathing: 
controlling my breath, making simple sounds, and coordinating breath with voice. Later, those goals became saying a word, then a short phrase, and eventually several words on one breath. 

Each small goal is built on the last. 

Today, I can speak well enough to teach this lesson. I’m still hard to understand and still need a translator—but I can speak. Because of that, I consider my original long-term goal achieved. 

Now I have a new goal: to speak clearly enough that I don’t need a translator. My first step is learning to speak even when I get emotional and cry.  Sometimes I can do it.  Most of the time, I can’t! 

My life has taught me this: 
Big goals don’t happen all at once. They happen one small step at a time—especially when the finish line feels impossible.” 

Ironically, I shared this with my AI voice (because it reads faster than I read).  I don’t think I’ve said much about my AI voice, so here it goes: A year before my stroke, I recorded some books onto cassette tapes for my kids to listen to while I was gone. I was so insistent that it needed to be done that I did it after everyone went to bed, the night before I flew with my mom to see my sister in London. Fast forward 20+ years. My youngest daughter& her husband converted them to digital & made a unique AI voice with the recordings of my voice & added a Chicago accent (I grew up there). It’s pretty robotic if I type, so Sophie reads (what I write) with my AI voice to add voice inflections.  It’s pretty cool to have the child who remembers my voice the least sound like me! 

 
When I did my fireside last summer, I used my AI voice for 80-90% of the speaking. For the rest, I spoke…but since I talk so quiet (& I still sign when I get emotional), I asked my friend/helper, Angie, to repeat everything I said (if u wondered, yes, my fireside was recorded & is on my YouTube channel).   

Later, I shared a condensed version of my fireside for a Young Women’s lesson at church.   Mark told Angie to NOT repeat me during my YW lesson, so that was my first lesson teaching semi-alone (since my stroke)!  A few months later, I shared the above message (written with help from Chat GPT), & soon after, I was asked to teach the 14-15-year-old girls (Young Women) at church!  If I was told 22 years ago about all that my future held for me, I wouldn’t have believed it – it’s hard enough to believe right now while it’s happening! 

Me, busy?!

I have no excuse for not writing sooner – people say I’m busy, but I’m not sure why I’m so busy! Ha! I’ve been taking a writing course, working on my mental health, traveling – but there’s been downtime in between…I guess I’ve been doing more therapy with my increased downtime, however, I wanted to post about Halloween.

We just had our ward trunk or treat on Oct. 30, & I was excited that I could go off on my own this year, & talk to people without anyone with me…& this time, I did very little writing (only a few times, cuz there was loud music). I was shocked by how well several people did with figuring me out! This happens more frequently now (people being able to talk to me), but it is always exciting for me (10+ years of not being able to speak might be the reason why! Haha). As for my costume, I wore what I wore to my SILs Halloween party… I will share a video, but basically I was abducted by aliens (shout out to Ron for the awesome idea, & to Angie who made the UFO that was above me, with a light shining down on me, & there were iridescent streamers around me to simulate being beamed up).

We also went to a trunk or treat with my son, DIL, & grandkids, where I went as my teenage self – minus my big hair & hoop earrings. Haha

As for my travels, the “Lynn Family reunion” (my kids, their spouses, & my grandkids) went to Wyoming. We take turns planning reunions, & this year was Sophie & Davis Sophie went all out, complete with goody bags, signs on the doors in the house, games she’d made, etc. A favorite “tradition” is taking a family picture- & this year we added my granddaughter, Winnie (Rowynn)!

Mark, Mark’s sister, Margot, Margot ‘s husband, Jasen, & I also took a cruise to Italy, Greece, & Turkey. I thrive in small groups & had a great time with just the 4 of us! I have always enjoyed Margot’s company, & I was so comfortable with she & Jasen – it probably helped by how well both Margot & Jasen did with understanding me!

So I am in the alumni life story writing class (for the writing class I took) & I was on my cruise during the last class, so I was watching the replay & realized I was doing other stuff as I “listened.” The thought came to me to just pick one, so I can put my heart into it. So I just listened to the re-play, but I should probably always do that. Is that why I’m considered busy? But how can I do just one of those things?! I try to rotate & be present with whatever I try to do, though I struggle when I’m listening & not doing.

Been busy!

Sorry, I haven’t been great about writing on my website.  I’m kept pretty busy with a mental health class, & with being the primary president at church!  I also went on a Disney cruise in January (on the new boat -it’s pretty amazing!), & in May, I  went to Utah to see both of my daughters walk at their college graduations, & to Florida to see my nephew (at his HS graduation),  I’m proud to say that I remain “Faceplant free since 2023”( when the planes landed, I didn’t fall forward – Thanks goes to Red Arena, my horse therapy). 

Technically, my son AND daughter graduated from BYU.  My youngest daughter (whose senior was during COVID, so she had never had a graduation) graduated as well, but from Utah State – though every class was online, so she had never stepped foot on campus until graduation week.  (I had the best laugh when the graduating students sang the fight song!)

“What are your thoughts about traveling?  We have heard horror stories about broken wheelchairs, etc. I wanted to ask you because you guys travel.”

“Traveling is my way of not letting a disability control our lives. Overcoming obstacles feels like an improvement in health- even if nothing actually changes with physical health. It is a mental win.” 

–Mark

Traveling is mentally, physically, & emotionally draining, yet it can also feel like a huge win because YOU “won,” not the disability!

My #1 advice: DO NOT take the heavy wheelchair u use at home.  Get a lightweight, collapsible one that has a removable lithium battery. Don’t underestimate how important your travel chair is: it has the power to increase/decrease anxiety & change your perspective on your trip!

I know this from experience.  I dreaded my old travel wheelchair, & traveling has been tough for me. In the past, travel has meant a severe downgrade in my lifestyle.  Not only did I lose much of the independence I had worked so hard for, but I also had to find ways to still do a little bit of therapy & my chair (which is a part of me now) wasn’t very comfortable, it didn’t have many of the features I enjoy, was wobbly, & harder to drive. 

At first, I was in a manual wheelchair – that was a nightmare since I only have 1 working arm, so I could only move in circles!  I upgraded to these collapsible chairs that can be either power or manual.  It is frustrating to be left in manual mode somewhere (since these chairs have little wheels), but I was so happy that I could move that I tolerated that how wobbly it was, how difficult it was to drive, how it had manual recline, etc. 

But I just got a new travel wheelchair: Majestic IQ-9000 from Comfy-Go Mobility.  I can’t tell u yet how future trips will go, but I can tell u that for the first time, I’m excited to use my chair, & I felt my anxiety decrease when my new travel w/c arrived: It isn’t wobbly, drives smoother than any other chair I have used (it starts/stops smoothly – if Mark is driving me with power on & suddenly stops, I don’t get knocked around), & it has a remote (which may not be a big deal, & may mean something else to Mark, but to me, the remote means that after 20 years, Mark & I can finally hold hands as we “walk”!)  I cried (with happiness) when I realized this!    My chair also has a lock feature that every wheelchair needs (so kids can turn it on & off, & play with the joystick, but can’t move the chair). This wheelchair has power recline, a “real” horn, & it makes a beeping noise as I back up. (Kinda a cool safety feature cuz people are warned, but we figured out how to turn it off – thank u, YouTube – so I could use it in a quiet place, like a church!) 

I have a bag I like my chair to be put into (then they put it below with strollers & luggage), though there is a closet by the airplane door, & they are required by law to put a wheelchair in the closet, if a wheelchair is not there already.

At our destination:

– I’m fortunate because my husband can lift me, so we don’t need a w/c van or lift, but those can be rented. 

-We always ask for an accessible room with a roll-in shower, though it’s never guaranteed (even when u book one).  They usually have shower chairs or something u can sit on.

-The big thing is to be creative in finding solutions for whatever doesn’t work out – another way I’m fortunate is because my husband has had creative solutions, like a black sock stretched over a ripping armrest, & a wood ball from a craft store in place of a missing joystick!  As Mark puts it, “There are always possible problems. We have had repairable damage to chairs, but most has been fixed after a quick trip to a hardware store or by using tools or emergency parts kits that I have started bringing after a few minor incidents (the kit has things like an Alan Wrench, industrial strength Velcro).”

“The unknown is scary, but it becomes comfortable with practice.“ (Mark)  For more support, u can join something like “Accessible Travel Club” on Facebook.

From the perspective of a caregiver (with an additional focus on international travel):

There are more options than most people realize. There is an entire travel industry around disability travel. There are people in other countries who do all the planning and work if you need it. Cruises are excellent because it feels like staying in a U.S. hotel with daily visits in foreign countries where you do not need to worry about what accessibility is available.  (While) you can never be guaranteed accessible rooms at hotels, you are guaranteed a specific accessible stateroom on a cruise ship where you can plan on things such as left or right-hand handrails near the toilet or in the shower. You just need to book early for cruises to ensure that a limited quantity of staterooms and excursions are available. 

In many ways, many countries outside of the U.S. are more accommodating than our own country. Foreign countries often fast-track wheelchairs through airports and customs. Some countries often do not charge the caregiver at some venues. There is a guilty pleasure when a foreign guide or venue employee goes crazy on someone who should not be using accessible facilities. It typically requires a bit of planning and a few calls or emails to figure things out. We use Sage Travel in Europe since they have trusted guides who understand accessibility. They also act as resources for finding accessibility supplies if needed. They often arrange accessible cruises and trips where applicable excursions and hotels are arranged. I am jealous of some foreign disability toilets where they can have adult changing tables and lifts installed. 

We do not bring the heavy chair with all the bells and whistles. We have a smaller and collapsible travel chair. It is not as comfortable, but it allows for more travel options. Tropical locations (most islands) are difficult to visit. Even if there are cuts in curbs in the towns, most buildings near a beach are on stilts due to hurricane season precautions. 

It helps that I am strong and pretty handy with fixing things. On a few occasions, I have had to carry my spouse over small steps or on full flights of stairs. I know how to fix things and can solve problems really well. AirBnB’s are notorious for over promising. Be prepared to find a shower stool or some adaption that you need for specific needs. If you can find a good business class flight you can get fully reclining seats on long haul flights. Just because it is a first or business-class flight, it does not mean every leg will have all the perks. You can ensure what you need if you carefully vet an itinerary. Business class flights also give access to lounges, which make distance travel much easier. Of course, not everyone can fly business class every time. If when we have flown business class, airplane bathrooms are tiny. We have made it work but I have friends who use a blanket and cath at their seat. A good support team of family or friends is super handy and required in some situations. 

Overall, international travel can be better than domestic travel. London is a great place to experiment with. We are lucky to have a direct flight from Austin. Prior to the pandemic, it was pretty cheap to fly to London on a direct 9 hour flight. You can take a train to Paris from London in a little over 2 hours. A 3 hour flight from London will put you on most cruises in Europe. 

We are all different

My old iPad would randomly turn off whenever it wanted to, & I’d lose whatever I was typing unless it was in the cloud.  At 1st, this was very irritating: typing is hard enough as it is, & to lose a huge text that I was typing was infuriating! But in time, I learned to type all my texts on the notes app.  I made a folder called “finish texts too…” & it actually helped me with another problem I was having, where I’d forget to text people back!  This was a welcome solution & it solved my issues for quite a while, but when I tried to copy & paste it into another app & it didn’t work, I  again wanted a new iPad.

I thought getting a new iPad would solve all my issues.  But it didn’t.  My new iPad just has different quirks & is a new kind of annoying!  HaHa!  I realized that every iPad I have owned has something different to get used to, & some are easier to adapt to than others.  There’s no “perfect iPad!”  (as nice as it would be!) 

People can be that way.  We are all different, with different quirks to get used too. 

On October 23rd the Bee Cave ward (12001 Bee Caves Rd.) will have its primary program at 10:30.  This is a wonderful opportunity to hear the children’s testimonies through word & song & let them share what they have learned this year – all are invited!  I was fortunate to assemble the program this year.  I won’t lie – it stressed me out.  But when I wrote the program last year, I learned that I like to involve the children in the process by asking them questions.  So I did that again this year, & it was very uplifting to read their responses. If u would like to hear it, but can’t come, even though the sound quality will be better in person, it will be available on zoom:

https://zoom.us/j/92517950378?pwd=Vjd4aUZVUVlhOFMwQ2hCNFZITm5jUT09

Passcode: 632442

Scan the QR code for the bulletin