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How ru feeding ur self?

PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE, & LOTS OF TRIAL & ERROR! SEVERAL OLD POSTS COME 2 MIND, LIKE DUMPING WATER ALL OVER MYSELF AT CHURCH!) BUT “When defeat comes, accept it as a signal that your plans are not sound. Rebuild those plans and set sail once more toward your coveted goal.” Author Unknown)

YEARS OF BABY STEPS & LOTS OF PATIENCE. I STARTED SMALL & I HAD AN ARM BRACE AT 1ST. I EVENTUALLY GOT A “TREAT MACHINE” (IT LOOKS LIKE A GERBIL FEEDER, & I TWIST A DIAL, SO SNACKS FALL IN A BOWL). THERE’S A PICTURE OF BOTH ON MY BLOG, ON A SCRAPBOOK PAGE CALLED“JENNY’S WAY”–http://www.jenannlynn.org/?page_id=648 . ANYWAY, I KEPT FEEDING MYSELF, & MY ARM GOT STRONGER. MEANWHILE, MY MUSIC THERAPIST HAD ME LIFTING 1 LB. WEIGHTS 2 MUSIC, WORKING ON MY GRIP, & WORKING ON MY AIM. I WAS A MESS AT 1ST, & 4 A WHILE, I STOPPED, CUZ IT BOTHERED ME THAT THERE WAS MORE FOOD AROUND ME, THAN IN ME! BUT WHEN I WAS LOSING WEIGHT, I DIDN’T CARE ANYMORE, & WATCHING A BABY GROW INTO A TODDLER HAS ITS BENEFITS! ? STILL, EVERYTIME I EAT, I HAVE 2 PRACTICE THE ANGLE 2 HOLD FOOD ON A UTENSIL—SO THE 1ST FEW BITES ARE MESSIER. HENCE, I PREFER MY HAND! LOL

WHAT’S IMPORTANT 2 REMEMBER IS 2 ENJOY & APPLAUD URSELF 4 EACH SMALL ACCOMPLISHMENT ALONG THE WAY, & 2 ENJOY WHAT U HAVE, CUZ IT MAY BE AS GOOD AS IT GETS, BUT DON’T LET THAT MAKE U GET COMPLACENT!
“Aim at the sun and you may not reach it; but your arrow will fly far higher than if you had aimed at an object on a level with yourself.” Author Unknown

THEN WHEN IT GETS BETTER, U CAN BE SURPRISED & THRILLED!

“Believe in yourself. Believe in your capacity to do great and good things. Believe that no mountain is so high that you cannot climb it. Believe that no storm is so great that you cannot weather it. You are not destined to be a scrub. You are a child of God, of infinite capacity.”
Gordon B. Hinckley

SOPHIA SCRAPBOOKS

A FEW YEARS AGO, WHEN I WAS TAUGHT POWERPOINT, I REMARKED HOW MUCH IT WAS LIKE DIGITAL SCRAPBOOKING, & I CAUGHT ON ABNORMALLY FAST.

A WHILE AGO, MY 9 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER, SOPHIA, STARTED MAKING TONS OF POWER POINTS, THAT REMINDED ME OF DIGITAL SCRAPBOOK. I ASKED IF SHE WANTED 2 LEARN 2 DIGITAL SCRAPBOOK (A FEW YEARS AGO, I TAUGHT HER TRADITIONAL SCRAPBOOKING), & SHE WANTED 2 LEARN. FOR 2 DAYS, I TRIED 2 TEACH HER IN ADOBE PHOTOSHOP ELEMENTS, BUT IT WAS SUPER TOUGH!

2 DAYS LATER THOUGH, SCRAPGIRLS INTRODUCED THEIR SCRAPBOOK PGS. IN POWERPOINT! I HAVE SHOWN SOPHIA, AND SHE IS A NATURAL! THE TIMING & THE PROGRAM THAT WAS USED COULDN’T HAVE BEEN MORE PERFECT!

HERE ARE THE .JPEGS OF HER 1ST DIGITAL SCRAPBOOK PAGES:
( the journalling says:
TOP, LEFT– PAGE 1
“While I waited for my ears to be pierced
I tried not to scream. I felt scared and
Worried. My teeth chattered and I
Couldn’t feel my arms.”
TOP, RIGHT–PAGE 2
“The ear piercers actually used a tool that
Looked like a Styrofoam stapler! (Which
made me even more scared!)”
BOTTOM, LEFT–PAGE 3
“Ok, if anyone asks, the reason I
Am closing my eyes is that my
Sister told me to (Sisters!)
Because it would “hurt less.””
“October 2008”
BOTTOM, RIGHT–PAGE 4
“After all, it turned out great and it did not hurt at all.”
“Now I can wear the most beautiful earrings in my ears!”)

THE LONGEST POST EVER!

I HAVE BEEN TRYING 2 PUT FAMILY 1ST. I HAVE NOT FOUND THE PROPER BALANCE: I AM 1 WHO NEEDS LOTS OF “ME” TIME (I LIKE BEING ALONE & EMAILING PEOPLE & JOURNALLING).

BUT IN SEARCHING 4 THIS BALANCE, I TRY 2 NOT USE THE COMPUTER WHEN THE KIDS ARE THERE, UNLESS THEY USE IT, WE USE IT 2GETHER, OR THEY WATCH TV. I’VE LEARNED THAT WHAT I’VE MISSED IS STUFF LIKE THE SMALL TALK THAT OCCURS WHEN U DRIVE AROUND, COOK TOGETHER, PLAY A PING PONG GAME, ETC. THE TIMES THAT I JUST SIT THERE & LISTEN (SINCE I CAN’T CHIME IN VOCALLY), SO I USED TO “DISAPPEAR.” SO, WHILE I’VE STARTED ABOUT 4-6 POSTS, I NEVER FINISH THEM! LOL (BUT I RECENTLY HAD LOTS OF “ME” TIME, SO I AM PUTTING THESE ALL 2GETHER, & THIS POST WILL BE SUPER LONG!

SINCE I’M AROUND MORE, I HAVE BEEN HELPING MORE W/HOMEWORK (IT’S GREAT THAT MY DOUBLE VISION CAN NOW BE CONTROLLED WELL ENOUGH 2 READ SOME SMALLER FONTS—IT’S HARD, & TAKES TIME & PATIENCE, BUT IT CAN BE DONE!)

I’VE ALSO BEEN ATTENDING A LOT OF THINGS THAT I WOULD NORMALLY NOT DO. I HAVE CONTINUED 2 BE SUPER UPSET BY PEOPLE “TEMPORARILY” PARKING IN THE HANDICAPPED AREAS (PEOPLE JUST DO NOT LEARN, & I SWEAR I’M GOING 2 DIE 1 DAY WHILE I WAIT IN THE STREET 2 GET IN MY VAN!) BUT I’M HAPPY 2 SAY THAT MY MINISTER (BISHOP) WILL BE PUTTING UP PLAQUES THAT SAY “RESERVED FOR THE DISABLED & THEIR FAMILIES.” (PERSONALLY, I’D LIKE IT IF EVERY LDS WARD CHURCH BUILDING IN THE UNITED STATES HAD THIS PLAQUE!)

ANYWAY, ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I’VE ATTENDED, & NORMALLY WOULDN’T ATTEND, WAS SOPHIE’S SCHOOL CARNIVAL. LUCKILY, PLACES ARE USUALLY FORCED 2 BE SOMEWHAT ACCESSIBLE, BUT I HAVE GONE 2 THINGS LIKE THIS WHERE IT’S ALMOST PAINFUL 2 GO, BECUZ I FEEL LIKE I HOLD MY FAMILY BACK: THEY CAN’T GO SHORTER WAYS (DUE 2 CURBS), I DON’T DO WELL IN CROWDS, ETC…

BUT JUST AS I WAS DOUBTING THIS NEW PHILOSOPHY OF “FAMILY 1ST” AS MK & SOPH WERE BUSY, & I SAT THERE ALONE WONDERING WHAT I WAS DOING, SOPH FOUND ME, & THANKED ME 4 COMING!

HOW COULD I 4GET? AS THE KIDS GET OLDER, THEY EXPRESS IT LESS, BUT IN THE LAST 7 ½ YEARS, SEVERAL TIMES I’VE EXPEIRIENCED HOW MY KIDS DON’T CARE WHAT I CAN/CAN’T DO, OR HOW THEY SACRIFICE THINGS 4 ME, BUT JUST THAT I’M THERE!

THIS SHOULD NOT BE SO HARD 4 ME 2 COMPREHEND: MY SOCIAL SIDE USUALLY INVOLVES PEOPLE JUST BEING NEAR ME, & HANGING OUT (ISN’T THAT THE SAME? OUR CAT, TIGER USED 2 PROVIDE THIS COMPANIONSHIP, BY SITTING BY ME ALL DAY, BUT HE’S GONE NOW–& I REALLY MISS HIM!). SO, LATELY, I HAVE BEEN TEACHING MY DAUGHTER, SOPH, TO DIGITAL SCRAPBOOK—I NOTICED SHE WAS MAKING LOTS OF POWERPOINT PROGRAMS IN A WAY THAT’S A LOT LIKE DIGITAL SCRAPBOOKING. IT’S CHALLENGING TO TEACH SOPH (THERE’S SOME NEW TERMS), BUT WHEN SHE GETS IT, SHE CATCHES ON FAST, SO IT’S FUN.

KIDS THESE DAYS JUST INSTINCTIVELY PICK UP ON TECHNOLOGY, & I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE COMPANY (ISHE USES A LAPTOP IN THE SAME ROOM, SO WE CAN HANG OUT IN THE SAME ROOM, LISTENING TO MUSIC, W/AN OCCASIONAL JOKE/CONVERSATION).

SOME ARE AWARE THAT MY HUSBAND WAS RECENTLY ASKED TO BE AN EARLY MORNING SEMINARY TEACHER AT CHURCH (HE TEACHES THE 14 & 15 YEAR OLDS ABOUT THE SCRIPTURES AT 6 AM). MANY HAVE ASKED ME HOW IT’S GOING, SO RATHER THAN TYPING THE RESPONSE AGAIN & AGAIN, I DECIDED 2 ANSWER THE QUESTION HERE:

SEMINARY MORNINGS GO REAL WELL. MK ENJOYS TEACHING THE YOUTH, & HE’S GOOD AT IT. ZACH IS IN MK’S CLASS, & I HOPE MK TEACHES ALL MY KIDS! (ONCE THE GIRL’S ARE 12 YEARS OLD, I START TEACHING THEM TOO, SO THE GIRL’S MAY GET “DOUBLE DUTY!” LOL)

JESS IS PRETTY SELF-SUFFICIENT IN THE MORNINGS. BUT JESS CLAIMS THAT SOPH WOULD BE LOST W/O ME! I DON’T DO MUCH, BESIDES REMIND SOPH OF THE TIME, & KEEP HER ON TASK. HERE’S THE LIST I MADE 4 SOPHIE’S MORNING ROUTINE(THE ACTUAL LIST IS MUCH “PRETTIER!”):

6:00-6:30-WAKE AND SHOWER (HANG UP TOWEL)
OR, IF YOU SHOWERED THE NIGHT BEFORE
6:30-6:40—(WAKE AND) GET DRESSED AND PUT CLOTHES IN THE HAMPER OR IN YOUR DRESSER DRAWER
6:40-6:50—CLEAN YOUR ROOM AND CLOSET AND GET YOUR SHOES ON
DAY OF THE WEEK areas of focus
MONDAY–clean the corner under your bookshelf, pick up your clothes
TUESDAY–clean the top of your desk, organize your books, pick up your clothes
WEDNESDAY–clean your closet, pick up your clothes
THURSDAY–clean the bunk bed stairs, general pick-up where needed, pick up your clothes
FRIDAY—clean inside your desk, pick up your clothes
SATURDAY–clean under your window, pick up your clothes, do laundry (sort into piles of white, light, & dark colors first)
6:50-7:00–BRUSH HAIR
7:00-7: 15 –EAT (if you are 10-15 minutes ahead of schedule, you may cook eggs)
7:15-7:20- GET YOUR SCHOOL SNACK AND GATHER YOUR SCHOOL STUFF
7:20-7:30—CLEAN KICHEN, BRUSH TEETH, AND HAVE FAMILY PRAYER (remember to bless those who can’t be there!)
THERE IS NO COMPUTER OR TV. ONCE YOU ARE READY, IF U HAVE ASKED FOR PERMISSION, YOU MAY BE ABLE TO DO COMPUTER, IF THE TIME PERMITS IT.

I LET SOPH TRY 2 GET HERSELF UP, BUT BY 6:15, I MAKE SURE SHE GETS UP, & THEN SHE’S PRETTY SELF-SUFFICIANT FROM THERE ON OUT, NOW. (IT HELPS THAT MK IS NOT LIKE THE “USUAL MOM,” SO THE KIDS HAVE BEEN GETTING UP & GETTING READY ALONE 4 YEARS!) DIFFERENCE IS THAT SOPH SHOWERS, & IS READY ON TIME OR EARLY NOW, INSTEAD OF LATE! (BECUZ I KEEP ON TOP OF HER, & REMIND HER OF THE TIME, & ASK IF SHE’S THERE ON THE LIST.) BUT B4 I MADE THE LIST, I OBSERVED HER FOR 2 DAYS, SO I COULD ESTIMATE HOW MUCH TIME SHE NEEDED, IN ORDER 2 COMPLETE A TASK. USUALLY, AFTER SHE FINISHES A TASK, SHE REPORTS 2 ME (LIKE I SMELL HER BREATH, SEE HER HAIR BRUSHED, ETC.–I EAT W/HER–I CAN USUALLY FEED MYSELF MEALS, IF FOOD IS READY 4 ME, & KEEP HER ON TASK, SO SHE DOESN’T STARE IN THE FRIDGE FOR 5 MIN.)

IN ADDITION, I AM TRYING 2 TALK, NOT SIGN, IN THE MORNINGS (AT TIMES, I IMAGINE MY HANDS ARE CUT OFF!), BECUZ SIGNING SERIOUSLY SLOWS THINGS DOWN! SOPHIE IS AMAZING AT UNDERSTANDING ME! THERE ARE SEVERAL CONSONANTS I JUST CAN’T SAY, YET SHE MANAGES 2 STILL FIGURE ME OUT!

UNFORTUNATELY, I SEEM 2 HAVE “SPEAKING CYCLES/PHASES.” SO SOME DAYS ARE BETTER THAN OTHERS—1 DAY, I’M AT ABOUT A “7,” ON A 10 POINT SCALE, BUT BY NEXT WEEK, I COULD BE AT A “3.” IT’S SCARY 2 GO 2 BED AT NIGHT, ESP. AFTER A “GOOD TALKING DAY,” BECUZ I NEVER KNOW IF I’LL BE ABLE 2 TALK THE SAME THE NEXT DAY! & IT’S SO FRUSTRATING, BECUZ WHEN OTHERS HAVE SEEN ME ON A GOOD DAY, I FEEL EXPECTED 2 ALWAYS TALK WELL, & I JUST CAN’T ON A “BAD” DAY!

IT TENDS 2 BE HARDER WHEN, (AMIDST OTHER REASONS) I’M TIRED–& I HAVEN’T BEEN SLEEPING WELL. BUT MOSTLY, I REALLY NEED 2 BE AROUND OTHERS, INVOLVED IN CASUAL CONVERSATIONS, ON OCCASION, WHERE THERE’S NO PRESSURE 2 TALK, BUT IT GETS ME TALKING! YET INTERESTINLY, SINCE THE LAST CALLING B4 MY STROKE WAS AS THE PRIMARY CHORISTER, THE PRIMARY SONGS ARE THE EASIEST 4 ME 2 “SING” ALONG TO, HERE & THERE, & IS A GREAT PRACTICE 4 MY SPEECH, THOUGH NOTHING BEATS JUST BEING WITH OTHERS, & TALKING!

MY “TIRED HOUR” IS 3 PM, & I FALL DOWNHILL. & I’M NOT SURE WHY, BUT MY HARDEST IS IF I LEAVE MY HOUSE. I’M GETTING BETTER AT MY MOM’S, & SOMETIMES MY CHURCH–BECUZ I’M AT THEM THE MOST– BUT I’M QUIET OR SILENT ELSEWHERE.

BACK IN JAN., I HAD A SPEECH THERAPIST COME & INTRODUCE A PROGRAM THAT REALLY HELPED, BUT SOON AFTER, SHE HAD A FAMILY CRISIS. SHE TRIED 2 STILL COME, BUT COULDN’T, SO I GOT SOME COMPUTER SPEECH PROGRAMS (FROM BUNGALOW), WHICH HAVE REALLY HELPED! (HOWEVER, WHEN MY COMPUTER CRASHED, I BROKE MY PRACTICE ROUTINE, & I CAN’T GET BACK INTO THE HABIT, ESP. WHEN IT TAKES AWAY FROM THE “ME” OR FAMILY TIME!) I NO LONGER HAVE A LIST OF WORDS I CAN SAY: I JUST TRY 2 SAY ANYTHING, WHENEVER I CAN, & IF IT SOUNDS BAD, I SIGN IT. BUT IF I LIMIT TO “YES,” “NO,” & 5 WORDS OR LESS PHRASES, I CAN VOCALLY SPEAK AN ENTIRE CONVERSATION, IF IT’S A “GOOD” DAY. I CAN’T EXPLAIN THE JOY I FEEL WHEN OUT OF NO WHERE, I ASK 4 HELP, & SOME1 COMES, OR I ASK 4 WATER, & I GET IT, OR I ENTER A ROOM & HAVE 2 BE ACKNOWLEDGED, BECUZ I SAID “GOOD MORNING!”

WHILE THERE’S 1000’S OF THINGS THAT I SAY, NOT ALWAYS CARING IF I’M UNDERSTOOD. IF I DO CARE, YET I WASN’T UNDERSTOOD, I SIGN OR WRITE IT OUT (I PRACTICE MY HANDWRITING SO MUCH, I USE MOTOR MEMORY & CAN EVEN WRITE W/O SEEING!). BUT I TALK A LOT 2 MYSELF! 4 EX., B4 I COULD TALK MORE, I SEEMED SO PATIENT AS I STARED AT MY COMPUTER & WAITED! NOW, I VOCALIZE WHAT I WAS ALWAYS THINKING: “ANY DAY NOW!” I DON’T CARE IF I’M UNDERSTOOD WHEN I SAY IT, & I DON’T WANT 2 SPELL IT AFTERWARDS—BECUZ IF MY VOCALIZING THINGS LIKE THAT NEED ME 2 SIGN WHAT I JUST THOUGHT B4, THEN IT TAKES UP TIME (THAT I DON’T WANT TO USE UP), CAUSING ME 2 NOT TRY SAYING THINGS (& I LIKE TRYING STUFF–SOMETIMES IT SURPRISES ME WHAT WORKS!) SO I JUST WAVE MY HAND AS IF 2 SAY “NEVER MIND,” OR PEOPLE ASK IF I NEED 2 TELL THEM IT.

THOUGH I DON’T HAVE A SPEECH THERAPIST, SOPH OFTEN IS MY BEST SPEECH THERAPIST, W/O KNOWING IT. SHE OFTEN EXPECTS ME 2 REPEAT THINGS SHE SAYS, MAKES LISTS OF NONSENSE WORDS 4 ME 2 SAY, THAT FOCUS ON LETTERS THAT I NEED 2 PRACTICE, SINGS W/ME (HARD 2 BELIEVE THAT IT STARTED W/ME SINGING “OLD MCDONALD” IN MUSIC THERAPY: I SANG “EIEIO” & “MOO”), & STRETCHES MY VOCAL CHORDS, BY ALWAYS MAKING ME LAUGH. OR SOMETIMES WE PLAY A GAME: SOPHIE HAS HAD ME SAYING NUMBERS & COLORS IN A GAME, & SHE CLOSED HER EYES, & I DIDN’T MOVE UNTIL SHE GUESSED IT, OR ONCE WE PLAYED CANDY LAND,I WOULD DRAW A CARD, & HAD 2 SAY THE COLORS. & AS I POINTED OUT, WE HAVE FOUND THAT SINGING PRIMARY SONGS IS A GREAT WAY FOR ME TO WORK ON MY SPEECH, SO SOPH HAS ME SING W/HER!
SPEAKING OF SINGING, I DO HAVE A MUSIC THERAPIST. WE HAVE FOCUSED ON MY SIGNING & BREATHING. ODDLY, LAYING DOWN, I CAN SOMEHOW KEEP AIR FROM ESCAPING OUT OF MY NOSE, & SAY LETTERS LIKE “K,” “F,” & “S.” BUT IF I HAVE EVEN THE SMALLEST INCLINE & FIGHT GRAVITY, OR “SQUISH” MY DIAPHRAGM, I CAN ONLY SAY THOSE LETTERS IF I PLUG MY NOSE!

THEN A WHILE AGO, I WAS VISITING AT MY SISTER’S HOUSE, & I WAS ALONE (THE PEOPLE THERE WERE IN ANOTHER ROOM & BUSY), SO I OPENED UP A ZIPLOC BAG, TOOK OUT A ROLL TO EAT, & RESEALED THE ZIPLOC, REMOVING THE AIR! DON’T KNOW IF I CAN REPEAT THAT 1 (I HAVE TRIED BEFORE 2 OPEN ZIPLOCS WITH MY TEETH & MY HAND, BUT I USUALLY SLOBBER TOO MUCH! LOL)

I DID SO WELL, I DECIDED 2 SEE IF I COULD UNSCREW THE CAP ON A TUB OF PRETZELS & GET AT THE PRETZELS…I DIDN’T WANT ANY PRETZELS, BUT IF I HAD WANTED ANY, I COULD’VE HAD 1!

THEN, ON OCT. 4TH THERE WAS A KNIFE & A LOAF OF BANANA BREAD IN MY REACH, & MY CLOTHING WAS ALREADY PROTECTED (I’D HAD SOME BREAD, BUT WANTED MORE, BUT NO1 WAS THERE). BUT KNIVES TOTALLY FREAK ME OUT, SO THOUGH I HAVE FIGURED (FOR A WHILE NOW) THAT I COULD CUT MYSELF A PIECE OF BANANA BREAD, I’VE NEVER DONE IT… BUT THIS TIME I DID IT, W/O CUTTING MYSELF! IT WASN’T A GREAT CUT, BUT I WAS SURPRISED AT HOW WELL I DID, & NO MATTER HOW IT’S CUT, IT TASTES THE SAME!

EITHER FOOD MOTIVATES ME, OR THERE’S SOMETHING ABOUT BEING ALONE…I’LL GO WITH THE LATER, SINCE I RECENTLY LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT, BUT WAS STILL MOTIVATED & DOING NEW THINGS!

SOMETIMES I AM TOO CONFIDENT IN MY ABILITIES (SINCE I COULD DO IT B4, I ACTUALLY ENVISION MYSELF STILL DOING IT!), & SOMETIMES I AM NOT AWARE OF WHAT I’M CAPABLE OF…BUT MK INSTILLS FAITH IN ME THEN, BECUZ HE KNOWS THE MOST OF WHAT I’M CAPABLE OF (OBVIOUSLY), & ENCOURAGES ME 2 DO IT. I THINK MK REALIZES I CAN DO STUFF, BUT NOT ALWAYS 2 THE DEGREE THAT I DO SOME THINGS. PLUS, I SEEM 2 WORK AT A HIGHER LEVEL WHEN ALONE…MAYBE IT’S “SURVIVAL MODE?” OR MAYBE I’VE HAD MORE CHANCES 2 PRACTICE, LIKE IN THERAPY, & NOT REALIZED THAT I’VE BEEN CAPABLE QUITE A WHILE…? THEN, THERE ARE PEOPLE WHOSE REACTIONS INSPIRE ME 2 DO MORE/TRY AGAIN!

I BELIEVE AS I BECOME MORE CAPABLE, MK LEAVES ME ALONE MORE (EVEN IF IT’S JUST DIFFERENT FLOORS OF THE HOUSE, WHERE HE’S JUST A RING AWAY—I HAVE A DOORBELL ON MY CHAIR, WHERE THE # OF RINGS, CALLS CERTAIN PEOPLE). & BEING ALONE MEANS I AM PROVIDED W/MORE OPPORTUNITIES 2 BE MORE SELF-SUFFICIENT. IT’S EASY 2 LET OTHERS DO STUFF, & SOMETIMES I END UP NEEDING HELP (THOUGH I’M 2 STUBBORN 2 ASK 4 HELP), BUT WHEN I’M ALONE, I’M FORCED 2 FIND NEW WAYS 2 ACCOMPLISH A TASK, IF THERE’S A POSSIBILITY (LIKE I CAN’T EVEN TRY 2 WALK YET, & THAT IS NOT A CURRENT POSSIBILITY, SO OTHERS HELP W/THE STEPS I NEED 2 MAKE IT A POSSIBILITY, & 4 NOW, MOVE ME). BUT THERE’S SOME THINGS MK JUST EXPECTS ME 2 DO, & IT MOTIVATES MY PERSONAL FAITH & CONFIDENCE, & I DO IT (LIKE WHEN I STARTED OPENING DOORS A WHILE AGO, IT ALL STARTED WHEN MK HAD LOCKED HIMSELF OUT OF THE FRONT DOOR, & THOUGH THAT DOOR IS HEAVIER, HE HAD NO DOUBT THAT I’D LET HIM IN, WHICH I DID!)

LASTLY, I AM VERY FORTUNATE . SOMETIMES, MK’S TALENTS SEEM LIKE THEY WERE GOD GIVEN 2 DO WHAT HE NEEDS 2 DO, 4 ME AS WELL. JUST A FEW EXAMPLES:

HE’S A VERY TALENTED WOODWORKER, WHICH HAS HELPED HIM MAKE THINGS PERSONALLY ADAPTED 2 ME, & HELPED ME ACCOMPLISH MORE, & BE MORE INDEPENDENT. THINGS CAN BE A HALLOWEEN COSTUME, MY KEYGUARD, MY COMPUTER DESK…U NAME IT!
HE’S VERY ARTISTIC, CREATIVE, ETC. HE MAKES AMAZING BIRTHDAY CAKES (I USED 2 DECORATE CAKES, & I’D BE DISAPPOINTED IF THIS STOPPED), HELPS W/SCHOOL PROJECTS (STUFF I THOUGHT I’D DO), HE ALSO MAKES MOVIES 4 ME . IN AUGUST, MY HUSBAND MADE THIS VIDEO TO INTRODUCE ME TO ALL THE NEW TEENAGE GIRLS I WOULD TEACH AT CHURCH. IT HAS PICTURES OF ME, ME SINGING AT BYU (I AM THE SOPRANO/HIGH VOICE THE FIRST 3 VERSES, & THE MELODY/SOLO ON THE FOURTH VERSE), & I INTRODUCE MYSELF (FROM A RECORDING I MADE AT 11 YEARS OLD. I THOUGHT U MAY ENJOY IT:

I’M ALIVE!

SORRY I HAVEN’T BEEN 2 CHATTY… I HAVE BEEN CRAZY BUSY. IN ADDITION 2 WHAT I DID IN JUNE (WENT 2 A WEDDING 4 MY YOUNGEST SIBLING, MIKE,IN UTAH & WENT 2 IDAHO), I’VE GOTTEN READY 4 MY 13 YR. OLD SON, ZACH’S, EAGLE COURT OF HONOR (& MADE ABOUT 100 SCRAPBOOK PAGES), WENT 2 MY SIS., MISSY’S WEDDING IN VERMONT, AS THE MATRON OF HONOR, WENT 2 DALLAS 4 A WEEK-END W/NO COMPUTER, & THERE’S BEEN LOTS IN BETWEEN…I’M SLOWLY GETTING BACK 2 “NORMAL,” & I NEED 2 GET BACK AMONG THE LIVING…SO I AM NOW PLAYING CATCH-UP!

2 ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT ZACH’S EAGLE COURT OF HONOR:

I DIDN’T REALIZE ANY1 COULD GET THEIR EAGLE B4 THEY WERE 14 YRS. OLD, & PRE-STROKE I MADE PLANS 2 SCRAPBOOK 4 ZACH’S EAGLE. & UNFORTUNATELY, SINCE THIS WAS THE ONLY ATTAINABLE PRE-STROKE GOAL, I WAS PRETTY DETERMINED 2 DO IT!

YACKTMAN’S CAN’T DO BIG EVENTS W/O STRESS, SO SINCE I’M 1 (THAT’S MY MAIDEN NAME), & I CAN’T BE HAPPY DOING JUST A LITTLE BIT, I HAD 2 CREATE MY OWN STRESS, BY ACCOMPLISHING THAT PRE-STROKE GOAL BY SCRAPPING 3 ALBUMS: ZACH’S CUB, BOY, & EAGLE SCOUT STUFF. MAYBE I’LL POST AT LEAST 1 CUB SCOUT, 1 BOY SCOUT, & 1 EAGLE SCOUT PG., OR I’LL POST AT LEAST SOME PICS OF THE EVENTS!

THOUGH I HURRIED 2 MAKE LOTS OF SCRAPBOOK PAGES IN 2 MONTHS, ALMOST EVEY SUPPLY 4 MY SCRAPBOOKS WAS BOUGHT PRE-STROKE, WHEN I SCRAPBOOKED TRADITIONALLY, & SCANNED IN. I HAD BEEN ORGANIZING & PLANNING 4 YEARS, BUT B4 MY STROKE, I THOUGHT I HAD 2-6 MORE YRS. 2 DO IT , BUT INSTEAD HAD A FEW MONTHS 2 DO ABOUT 100 PAGES! LOL BUT SINCE ORGANIZING IS MOST OF THE BATTLE, I WAS ABLE 2 PULL IT OFF, SINCE I DID THE HARDEST PART B4!

BUT LET ME GIVE A PLUG 2 http://www.sbtoshare.com , WHO PRINTED MY PAGES IN A HURRY. I CAN’T BEGIN 2 SAY HOW AWESOME THEY ARE!

AFTER ZACH’S SCRAPBOOKS, I WAS ASKED IF THINGS EVER START TO SLOW DOWN A LITTLE…LOL HA. NEVER. I GO FROM 1 THING 2 ANOTHER. I ALWAYS FIND A WAY 2 STRESS! I’M GETTING BETTER: I USED 2 GO CRAZY W/O STUFF 2 KEEP ME BUSY! NOW, I’M BETTER AT RELAXING, TAKING A MOMENT 2 STOP, ETC. BUT IF THOSE TIMES COME, I DON’T KNOW WHAT 2 DO W/MYSELF, & IT NEVER LASTS LONG! EVEN ASW/MY PHYSICAL LIMITATIONS, I ALWAYS HAVE 2 MANY THINGS GOING ON SIMUTANEOUSLY, SO I DON’T START & FINISH, BUT AM LIKE THE ENERGIZER BUNNY, WHO KEEPS GOING & GOING…

BTW, I HAVEN’T COMPLETELY 4GOTTEN U: I RECENTLY ADDED SOME THINGS 2 MY WEBSITE:
• A BOOK
• A BOOK DESCRIPTION
• A “CONTACT ME” PAGE
• AN ASL SECTION, SO PEOPLE CAN “BRUSH UP” ON THEIR “JENNY-ESE” NOW (& MY OWN HAND DID THE ASL CHART)!

SO MY CHAIR WAS BROKEN SUN. NIGHT-WED. MORNING. AFTER 6 YEARS, A W/C BECOMES A PART OF U, SO I FELT A PART OF ME WAS MISSING. IT WAS LESS PAINFUL 2 HAVE GONE THIS TIME, BUT “U NEVER KNOW WHAT’S GONE UNTIL IT’S GONE”, THOUGH! 6 YRS. AGO, I LOST MY VOICE & THE USE OF MY BODY. I HAD NO IDEA WHAT A BLESSING THAT WAS, OR THAT I COULD LOSE THEM. ONLY IN SLOWLY AQUIRING SOME OF IT BACK, HAVE I REALIZED THE ENORMOUS BLESSING.

LONG STORY SHORT, BY A FLUKE & PROMPTING, I FOUND A TRAVEL FOLDING POWER W/C ON EBAY, DIRT CHEAP (LIKE $150) IT NEEDED LOTS OF SMALL REPAIRS & A BATTERY. BUT STILL SPENT ONLY LIKE $600 TO BUY, SHIP, & GET A HEADREST–& USED CHAIRS R $1500-2500 ON EBAY! ONLY BAD THING: IT STANK OF SMOKE & WON’T TILT (& I TILT 2 HELP ME EAT, & RELIEVE PRESSURE ON MY BUTT. I ALSO TILT WHEN I NEED 2 POTTY & HAVE 2 WAIT, WHEN I WATCH MOVIES, & WHEN I LISTEN 2 AUDIO BOOKS–IT’S VERY TAXING 2 SIT UPRIGHT ALL DAY: IN THE HOSPITAL, I COULD ONLY HANDLE A FEW HRS. AT FIRST, & I WAS TILTED, SINCE I HAD LESS CORE MUSCLES!)

I GOT THE FOLDING, TRAVEL, POWER W/C 4 VERMONT—WE WERE FLYING, & WHEN I FLY, I’M STUCK IN A MANUAL W/C (WHICH I DETEST, BCUZ I CAN’T MOVE MYSELF, & GO BACK 2 SQUARE 1, LOSING ALL INDEPENDENCE THAT I’VE GAINED). HOWEVER, IT HAS COME IN VERY, VERY HANDY AS A BACK-UP, WHILE MY CHAIR IS BEING REPAIRED. IT HAS IT’S DRAWBACKS, BUT HOW GREAT 2 NOT BE IN MY MANUAL W/C 4 DAYS!

IN MY REGULAR POWER W/C, I RAREY TILT JUST 2 TILT, YET I CRAVE IT ALL THE TIME! WHILE I THINK I USE THE TILT FUNCTION MORE THAN I REALIZE, I WANT WHAT I CAN’T HAVE! ISN’T THAT HUST HUMAN NATURE?

THE LAST WEEK

BEEN SOOO BUSY THIS WEEK! WHILE MK WAS W/ZACH FRI. NIGHT, WE HAD “GIRL TIME” & I TAUGHT THE GIRLS 2 SCRAPBOOK. THEY MADE ENTIRE ALBUMS THAT R DARLING! MY LIFE WAS PUT ON HOLD ALMOST 4 A WEEK, IN ORDER 2 PREPARE & TEACH. FRI. FROM 1 PM-SAT. AT 1 PM, I NEVER USED INTERNET! BUT IT’S WORTH BEING BACKED UP–CAN’T DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY THE GIRLS WERE 2 LEARN!