Author: Jenny

In March 2004, I suffered a severe brainstem stroke, & was "locked in" for several months". I have been married to a wonderful man, Mark ever since Dec. 1994, & we have 3 kids: Zach (1997),, Jessica (2000), & Sophie (2002). I have been blessed in so many ways by God, so I wanted to keep a blog to share my recovery, life, & answer questions.

TIGER

IT'S BEEN AWILE, THOUGH I'VE POSTED 3 TIMES IN MY HEAD! LOL ("IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS," RIGHT? LOL) BEEN BUSY CARING 4 THE CAT—IT'S AS TIME CONSUMING AS A NEW BABY, BECAUSE IF I LET HIM OUT OF HIS ROOM, HAVE 2 PLAY W/IT (WELL, WATCH HIM & TWICE I TRIED 2 CRUMPLE PAPER BALLS 4 HIM—WHICH IS GREAT THERAPY 4 ME!) & GIVE HIM THE ATTENTION HE NEEDS. MY LAP, IN A SPACE UNDER MY COMP. TABLE & QUIET ME ALSO PROVIDE A PERFECT NAPPING SPOT (BUT IF HE HEARS SOME1, HE BITES 2 TRY 2 STAY AWAKE & PLAY–& I GO CRAZY, SO HE'S PUT IN HIS ROOM).

TYPING IS PILING UP, SINCE I CAN RARELY TYPE W/TIGER AROUND. HE IS DEVELOPING BAD HABITS, BECAUSE I CAN'T SAY NO (LIKE WALKING ON MY COMP. KEYBOARD & TABLE, CHEWING WIRES 4 MY COMP., PLAYFULLY BITING MY FINGER OR KNEES) & UNFORTUNATELY, I CAN'T PUT HIM AWAY WHEN HE MIS-BEHAVES (WHICH AFFECTS MY TIME W/HIM, BECAUSE, THOUGH I'M HOME A LOT, I DON'T LET HIM OUT OF HIS ROOM, UNLESS I KNOW HE CAN STAY OUT A LONG TIME OR HE'S OUT UNTIL JESS GETS HOME FROM SCHOOL.

BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS: "I WASN’T EXCITED ABOUT GETTING A CAT, THOUGH, BECAUSE I HATED IF R DOG BLOCKED ME, & I COULDN’T MOVE." BUT AFTER I STROKED, I NEVER PETTED OR BONDED W/THE DOG, SO SHE BECAME A NUISANCE. BUT, I HAVE MORE PATIENCE 4 TIGER, SINCE WE’VE BONDED, & HE’S JUST LITERALLY IN MY FACE. HE PROVIDES A GREAT COMPANION, & THOUGH HE'S VERY PLAYFUL (LIKE A DOG), HE'LL SIT STILL IN MY LAP & LET ME DRIVE (I GO EXTREMELY SLOW, SO HE CAN GET OFF IF HE CHOOSES; BUT ONCE HE SAW ME GET IN MY ELEVATOR, SNUCK IN, & GOT ON MY LAP, 2 GO 4 A RIDE!)

THE BEST IS THAT TIGER GIVES ME GREAT THERAPY, SOMETHING 2 DO BESIDES COMP. OR TV (I HATE TV ANYWAY & GET BORED DOING COMP. STUFF—ALTHOUGH THERE'S ALWAYS SOME 2 DO), PROVIDES ENTERTAINMENT IF WE LOOSE POWER, & THERE R LONELY DAYS (DESPITE EMAILLING PEOPLE) & HE PROVIDES TONS OF COMPAINIONSHIP.

SURE, THERE R TIMES HE CAUSES HEADACHES & FRUSTRATES ME, BUT I HAVE 2 REMIND MYSELF, "HE'S A KITTEN. KITTENS DO THAT. I'M REALLY FRUSTRATED W/ME, SINCE I CAN DO NOTHING 2 TEACH HIM, WHEN HE MIS-BEHAVES.) HOWEVER, AT TIMES, HE DOES RECOGNNIZE MY DISAPPROVAL GRUNT & HOW I SAY "TIGER" ("I-ER"). (AGAIN, GREAT THERAPY!)

TIGER

WE GOT A NEW FAM. MEMBER–A CAT, “TIGER.” SURPRISINGLY, THE CAT ISN’T SCARED OF ME & LOVES ME, SINCE I DON’T MOVE, IF HE’S TIRED. HE LOVES 2 SIT IN MY LAP, UNDER MY COMP. TABLE. OTHERWISE, HE’S CURIOUS & FASCINATED BY TV..

I LOVE CATS, BUT OPTED 4 A DOG B4 MY STROKE, SINCE BABIES & CATS RARELY MIX. I WASN’T EXCITED ABOUT GETTING A CAT, THOUGH, BECAUSE I HATED IF R DOG BLOCKED ME, & I COULDN’T MOVE.

I’M A SOFTIE, THOUGH. HE’S SO CUTE & LITTLE! HIS INSISTENT “MEOWS” SHOULD ANNOY ME, BUT MELT MY HEART! GUESS, IN A WAY, HE’S MY BABY. (BUT HE’S REALLY JESS’ BABY, & THEY R SO CUTE 2GETHER!) I HATE LOCKING UP THE CAT–I SOOO UNDERSTAND HIS CRIES OF BEING UNABLE 2 LEAVE SOMEWHERE & WANTING SOME1.

I KNOW THERE WAS AN ARTICLE OF A WOMAN WHO WAS LOCKED-IN & GAVE BIRTH. I DON’T KNOW HOW SHE TOLERATES HEARING THE BABY CRY–IT’D TEAR ME UP INSIDE! WE JUST HAVE A CAT & IT’S HARD 2 HEAR HIM CRY!

BET MY CONTACT W/TIGER (LUCKILY, THERE’S A WORD SIGN) IS SEVERELY LIMITED THOUGH, THROUGH NO1’S FAULT…

tiger

Music and the Spoken Word

I WAS SO EXCITED 2 FIND A WEBSITE 4 Music and the Spoken Word . EVERY SUNDAY, I LISTEN, & MY FAV. PART IS THE 5-10 MIN. MESSAGE. I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THE LAST MESSAGE, “THE POWER OF PATIENCE.” OTHER FAV.: “SPRING CLEANING” & “FROM CHAOS 2 CONTENTION.”

IRONICALLY, HEARING THE RECENT MESSAGE WAS EXTREMELY SIMILAR 2 SOMETHING I'D WRITTEN RECENTLY 4 CHURCH, BUT THEY SAY IT BETTER THAN I WOULD, SO HERE'S SOME STUFF I WHOLEHEARTEDLY AGREED WITH:

"—When our dreams collide with our limitations, do resilience and a little humor accompany our efforts? —Patience doesn't make the problems go away— there's power in patience that makes us equal to the task. "

TRUNK OR TREAT

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!

AT TRUNK OR TREAT/ HALLOWEEN WE WERE:

ME: SANDRA BULLOCK/MISS CONGENIALITY
MARK: JESSE JAMES (SANDRA BULLOCK'S MAN)
(FEW KNEW WHAT MARK & I WERE, & IF THEY THOUGHT “BEAUTY PAGEANT CONTESTANT” OR “PRINCESS” WE DEFINITELY DIDN’T APPEAR AS A COUPLE AT 1ST GLANCE!)

ZACH–ROBBER
JESS– PIRATE PRINCESS
FIA—CINDERELLA

I HAVE 3 JOKES FOR U:

WHY DIDN’T THE SKELETON GO TO THE PARTY?
HE HAD NO BODY TO GO WITH!

WHY DID THE SKELETON NOT CROSS THE ROAD?
HE HAD NO GUTS!

WHAT DO GHOSTS PUT IN THEIR BRAS?
BOO-BIES!

MOM

MON. WAS A HORRIBLE DAY 4 ME. SEEMED I HAD 2 DO EVERYTHING TWICE THAT DAY, WHICH IS BEYOND FRUSTRATING WHEN U HAVE DOUBLE VISION & 1 HAND! OTHER THINGS WERE ALSO HARD 2 DEAL W/& BY 4 PM, I JUST NEEDED A HUG & 2 CRY. LUCKILY, FIA WAS UP 2 THE JOB!

THURS., I GOT 2 RETURN THE FAVOR: FIA WAS SUPER UPSET. MY HEART ACHED 4 HER, AS HERS DID 4 ME ON MON, (I COULD TELL). HOW I ACHED 2 HOLD & TALK 2 HER! IN THE PAST, THIS DESIRE BE A "TRADITIONAL" MOM CAUSED A PBA CRY, BUT IT DOES NO GOOD 4 US 2 BOTH CRY, SO I SUCKED IT UP, WENT 2 HER BED, SIGNED "SORRY" (SHE KNOWS "SORRY"), & HELD HER HAND UNTIL SHE TOLD ME 2 GO. IT WAS AMAZING HOW QUICK SHE STOPPED CRYING! THE BONUS WAS BEING, THOUGH NON-TRADITIONAL, MOM!

THURS. MORN., I ALSO GOT 2 BE "MOM" & GET THE KIDS READY 4 SCHOOL, ENTIRELY ON MY OWN. THE KIDS, AT 9, 7, & 5 YRS. OLD, R SURPRISENLY SELF-SUFFICIENT, THANKS 2 SOME PLANNING ON MARK'S BEHALF, SO IT WAS FAIRLY EASY—I JUST ENSURED THEY WERE UP & BARKED ORDERS! ZACH DID THE MAJORITY—HE WAS "MY HANDS."