IT HAS COME 2 MY ATTENTION, THAT I SHOULD TRY 2 EXPLAIN MY VISION SOMEWHAT:
IT IS NOT BLURRED, THOUGH VASELINE ON A LENS MAY BE CLOSEST 4 U 2 EXPERIENCE DOUBLE VISION (DV). MAYBE BOUNCING ON A BOAT 2, IN CHOPPY WATERS, THOUGH THAT’S A GUESS, SINCE I HAVE LITTLE EXPIERIENCE ON A BOAT! W/DV, THERE’S 2 IMAGES, & I’M LUCKY 2 USUALLY BLEND THEM 2GETHER. 4 INSTANCE, LOOKING AT A CLOCK, U’D C 2 CLOCKS. I’M LUCKY 2 USUALLY C 1 CLOCK, BUT MY EYES & HEAD WIGGLE INDEPENDANT OF EACH OTHER, SO I HAVE 2 BE SUPER PATIENT & WAIT 4 THEM ALL 2 COINCIDE. SOMETIMES, ESP. IF I GLANCE AT STUFF, I C 2 IMAGES THAT SLOWLY BECOME 1. THE IMAGE ALWAYS CONSTANTLY BOUNCES-LUCKY I DON’T GET SEASICK! I TRIED AN eye patch, WHICH ELIMINATES 1 OF 3 WIGGLES, BUT BECAUSE I HAVE 2 COVER MY LEFT EYE, I LOSE PERIPHRIAL VISION & HAVE 2 TURN MY HEAD MORE, WHICH STINKS WHEN U CAN’T TURN YOUR HEAD 2 THE RT. VERY WELL! THE eye patch IS NOT A “CURE-ALL”.
HOW I C IS MORE FACTORS THAN DOUBLE VISION. MY EYES COMPENSATE 4 WHAT THE OTHER LACKS, SO MY VISION WORSENS W/O AN EYE. MY LEFT EYE OFTEN CLOSES, ESP. IN NATURAL LIGHT (WHICH I’M SENSITIVE 2). MY LEFT EYE WIGGLES TONS MORE & HAS WAY BETTER RANGE & PERIPHIAL VISION, BUT MY RT.OFTEN C’S BETTER, HAS LITTLE RANGE, BUT HAS NO PERIPHIAL VISION. I’M LEGALLY BLIND, SO IN THE HOSPITAL I HAD GLASSES THE NURSES NEVER PUT ON, DESPITE EVEN NOTES ABOVE MY HEAD (EXTREMELY ANNOYING), & GRADUALLY WE WORKED 2 NOW I WEAR CONTACTS MARK PUTS IN MONTHLY (I CAN SLEEP W/THEM-SO,ETHING I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD DO BECAUSE OF PREVIOUS EYE PROBLEMS). I COULD KICK MYSELF 4 CHICKENING OUT OF LASER EYE SURGERY AT 30, WHEN I STROKED ONLY 7 MONTHS LATER!
SOME DAYS R GREAT, SOME R BAD. DISTANCE ALWAYS MAKES IT HARDER, SINCE THE IMAGE IS SMALLER. THIS IS WHY LARGER FONT, USUALLY SIZE 24, IS PREFERRED. I ALSO READ LIKE MY ASL IS READ-AFTER THE 1ST FEW LETTERS R SEEN, I GUESS THE WORD & GO ON. IF I GUESSED RT., THE SENTENCE MAKES SENSE. IF NOT, I GO BACK & DO LETTER-BY-LETTER UNTIL I’M SURE OF THE WORD. READING IS HARD (1 WORD AT A TIME!) & I HAVE 2 KNOW I HAVE THE ALLOTTED TIME.
MY EYESIGHT TENDS 2 BE WORSE IN THE MORNING, SO I DO EYE EXERCISES EVERY MORNING, AS I STARE AT THE CEILING. VERTICAL IS GREAT, HORIZONTAL’S OK, DIAGANOL, ESP. RT. 2 LT., IS HORRID. COMPUTER, READING EMAILS & SMALL FONT ON WEBSITES, TYPING & EMAILS FROM OTHERS IS ACTUALLY AN EYE EXERCISE. IT TRAINS MY EYES 2 FOCUS 2GETHER.
I HAVE NO CLUE WHY, BUT IT’S HARD 2 DIFFERENTIATE GROUPS. 4 EX., ZACH LOVES LUBY’S (CAFETERIA STYLE FOOD). I CAN ONLY PICK OUT WHAT I WANT IF I’M TOLD WHAT’S THERE, EVEN THOUGH I C IT. I DIFFERENTIATE PEOPLE BY COLORS OF CLOTHES & OCCASIONALLY, HAIRSTYLES!
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I SHOULD PROB. MENTION THAT WE CONQUERED SOMETHING HUGE, THAT 2 YEARS AGO WAS ?ED. YESTERDAY, MARK WENT 2 CA, 2 TAKE THE KIDS 2 MY SISTER & BIL (BROTHER-IN-LAW) HOUSE. I STAYED HERE. IT WAS SHORT-MARK IS BACK, & I’M ALIVE. MY CARETAKER, BROTHER, & SIL (SISTER-IN-LAW) HELPED MAKE IT POSSIBLE
HANDICAPPED OR DISABLED
I NEVER THOUGHT IT MATTERED WHICH WORD, HANDICAPPED OR DISABLED, WAS USED. THEY’RE JUST WORDS THAT MEAN THE SAME THING. BUT WHEN WE WENT 2 SEA WORLD (WE HAD DINNER W/SHAMU, BTW), A LADY ASKED IF I WAS HANDICAPPED. THIS IS A COMMON ? ABOUT ME, & MY 1ST THOUGHT IS, “DUH, YEAH!” THEN I USUALLY FEEL HURT. IT OCCURED 2 ME WHY, THIS TIME. “HANDICAPPED” SEEMS DEROGATORY. “IS SHE DISABLED?” SOUNDS BETTER & IS EASIER 2 TAKE.
BTW, IF I CAN I TOOT MY OWN HORN, I’M SO PROUD HOW WELL I CONTROLLED MY PBA AT THE TEMPLE-I LEARNED SOME TRICKS, SO I FOUGHT MY TEARS AMAZINGLY WELL.
7/18/06
FIA IS A GREAT CHEERLEADER. HER JOB 4 THERAPY IS 2 HOLD A RECORDER (SHE HAS ONLY DONE IT 3X), & I TRY 2 BLOW. IF I MAKE NOISE, SHE CHEERS! SHE LOVES 2 FEED ME & SIT ON MY LAP, WHETHER RIDING/MOVING OR NOT. HER LATEST THING IS 2 OPEN MY CAR DOOR & ACTUALLY TRY 2 LIFT ME OUT OF R CAR! WHEN I STROKED, SHE WAS BARELY 2 YRS. OLD. I OFTEN WONDER ABOUT R BOND, & IF SHE REMEMBERS HER MOM BEFORE HER STROKE. IN MY EDUCATION, I LEARNED HOW VITAL THE 1ST 5 YRS. OF LIFE R. I WORKED HARD 4 MY OLDER 2, SO IS THAT WHERE FIA HAS DEVELOPED A LOVE 4 READING (FROM HER SIBLINGS)? BUT JESS IS NOT A READER’OH! SHE ‘READS’ 2 ME 2!
WE PLANNED 2 GO 2 SAN ANTONIO WED. (ZOO) & THURS. (THURS. MORNING BREAKFAST W/SHAMU 4 MY FAM., MIKE, & MIKE’S GIRL) & HAVE A HOTEL. NOW MIKE’S TEMPLE ENDOWMENTS R TUES., & MARK HAS LENGTHENED R HOTEL STAY & WE DRIVE DOWN TUES. (TODAY). I WILL BE THERE, THOUGH IT IS HARD. MY FRIEND, EMILY, WENT W/ME LAST TIME, SO I TALKED 2 HER, & SHE LEFT IT IN MY HANDS BUT SAID THINGS THAT RE-ASSURED ME. I GUESS THE SESSION IS AT 6. I’M MIKE’S GIRLFRIEND, LEORA, WILL WATCH MY KIDS’ AT CHUCK-E-CHEESE.
ZACH’S B-DAY
TODAY IS ZACH’S B-DAY. IN 2004 I BLINK SPELLED “HAPPY BIRTHDAY.” IN 2005, I SIGNED IT. MY GOAL WAS 2 SAY IT THIS YEAR. I CAN’T. I CAN SAY A FEW THINGS SLURRED & UNRECOGNIZABLE WHEN I SIGN. I HAVE BETTER CONTROL 2 ATTEMPT 2 SAY STUFF WHEN I WANT, BUT APHASIA USUALLY WINS & I HAVE 2 WAIT 4 “THE RT. BREATH” WHICH STINKS SINCE NOT ANY BREATH WILL DO & I ALREADY HAVE 2 WAIT 4 A BREATH, SINCE I CAN’T SPONTANEOUSLY SPEAK & HAVE NO CONTROL OVER WHEN THAT BREATH WILL COME. THERE’S PROGRESS, ESP. MUCH THAT’S UNNOTICED WHERE BREATHING’S CONCERNED, JUST NOT 2 THE DEGREE I’D HOPED.