Author: Jenny

In March 2004, I suffered a severe brainstem stroke, & was "locked in" for several months". I have been married to a wonderful man, Mark ever since Dec. 1994, & we have 3 kids: Zach (1997),, Jessica (2000), & Sophie (2002). I have been blessed in so many ways by God, so I wanted to keep a blog to share my recovery, life, & answer questions.

august already?

SORRY I’VE BEEN M.I.A. I LAST POSTED, BECAUSE I MISTAKENLY THOUGHT I WAS ALMOST DONE TRANSFERRING COMP, BUT THEN THERE WAS COMPLICATIONS , ETC. I HAD THAT KEEPING ME BUSY, THEN WAS GONE 2 WEEKS! SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED, & I’LL SHARE SOME HIGHLIGHTS L8R, A GREAT THING THOUGH: WOULD U BELIEVE THAT AFTER 5 YEARS, I JUST BLEW OUT CANDLES ON MY BIRTHDAY CAKE?!? (THERE WAS 2.) IT WASN’T EASY & TOOK A WHILE & THE CANDLES WERE CLOSE (& IT WAS A GOOD THING JUST MY KIDS & MK WERE THERE), BUT IT HAPPENED! SO HAPPY! HAD THE GOAL 2 DO THAT SINCE LIKE LAST FALL!

happy summer!

SORRY I TOOK SO LONG…BEEN RATHER BUSY HERE, TRANSFERING COMP. (AS U KNOW, I LOST DATA BUT I’VE BEEN RESTORING WHAT I HAVE ON MY NEW COMP.—I’M FINALLY ABOUT DONE!–, & FIGURING OUT MY NEW COMP. IS TOUGH–IT’S WEIRD & IS CAUSING SO MUCH TROUBLE…), & MAKING STUFF 4 THE YACKTMAN FAMILY REUNION IN PARK CITY, UT IN JULY. (I QUITE ENJOY IT, BUT IT’S BEEN QUITE DEMANDING & TIME-CONSUMING…BTW, I’LL DRIVE TO UTAH, & CAN’T GAURANTEE AN INTERNET CONNECTION, SO I MAY BE GONE MOST OF JULY ALSO.)

PLUS, JESS & FIA JUST FINISHED A MUSICAL THEATER CAMP, WHERE FIA WAS TO-TO, & JESS WAS THE LION IN “WIZARD OF OZ”. THEY HAD 7 DAYS 2 PUT IT TOGETHER. JESS & FIA WERE DARLING. JESS SANG A SOLO & WAS FUNNY (SHE WAS GIVEN THE BIGGEST PART SHE AUDITIONED 4, & ALL THE SLAPSTICK). IT WAS ALSO A PBA MIRACLE 2 NOT HYSTICALLY CRY, & MY DOUBLE VISION HAS SLIGHTLY IMPROVED, SO I COULD C IT OK, SITTING IN THE FRONT ROW (JESS RESERVED SEATS 4 US.)

IN ADDITION, JESS JUST FINISHED ALL-STAR BASEBALL, WHICH HAD TONS OF TOURNAMENTS & PRACTICES (THOUGH I DIDN’T ATTEND A LARGE PORTION OF IT, SINCE IT WAS PHYSICALLY DRAINING, BUT SHE’S SURELY A TALENTEED GIRL!) I’VE BEEN SO, SO BUSY.

UNFORTUNATELY, WHILE I CAN DO IT, USING MY COMP. WHILE CARBONITE WAS RESTORING FILES, WAS CAUSING MY COMP. 2 RESTORE SLOWLY–I NEEDED 2 BE OFF, 4 IT 2 BE FASTER. SO, I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MORE TIME W/MY FAM. & LISTENING 2 AUDIO BOOKS—I’VE FINISHED 3 BOOKS! I RATHER LIKE IT!

SOMEDAYS, LATELY, I’M QUITE A TALKER (4 ME). I THINK SHORT SENTENCES OR PHRASES, & THEY JUST “POP” OUT. OTHERTIMES, IT’S JUST NOT A “TALKING DAY,” BUT IF IT IS, SOMETIMES U CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND ME 2 (KNOWING THE CONTEXT HELPS…) FIA GETS A HUGE KICK FROM HEARING ME SAY THINGS LIKE, “FIA, SHARE!” & “HURRY UP!” & “GET OFF YOUR BUTT!” ZACH JUST SEES THE HUMOR THAT I SAY THINGS 2 DISCIPLINE, BUT NEED 2 SIGN THINGS LIKE “GOOD JOB!”

UPDATE

REMEMBER MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE RECENTLY CRASHED? NOTHING COULD BE RECOVERED…MUCH OF WHAT I LOST WAS HOURS DEVOTED 2 ORGANIZING, FREEBIES 4 SCRAPBOOKING, & THINGS I SCANNED (PICTURES & SCRAPBOOK SUPPLIES). BUT THANKFULLY, I HAVE THE MAJORITY OF WHAT I FEEL IS IMPORTANT: PICTURES & SCRAPBOOK PGS. THAT I’VE MADE, THANKS 2 MY “HEAVENLY BACK-UP”! I SHOULD HAVE HAD MOST EVERYTHING…IF MY COMP. HAD COOPERATED & COPIED COMPLETELY WHEN I’D TRIED 2 COPY, DUE 2 A NAGGING FEELING 2 COPY, JUST 2 DAYS B4 IT CRASHED!

BUT 1ST, I WANT 2 SWITCH COMPUTERS B4 I ADD MUCH MORE, OR RE-DO STUFF, BECAUSE THIS COMP. IS WAY 2 FULL & SLOW & IS DYING! SO, I MAY BE “OUT OF COMMISSION” 4 A BIT, & CRAZY BUSY…UNFORTUNATELY, NO1 CAN DO MUCH 2 HELP…I NEED 2 JUST HAVE LOTS OF TIME, ONCE I SWITCH.

BUT LET ME SHARE AN EXCITING UPDATE B4 LEAVING A BIT!:

BACK AROUND JULY, I STARTED PLAYING THE RECORDER IN MUSIC THERAPY. I HAD A GOAL 2 BLOW OUT A CANDLE BY MY B-DAY. I’D TOLD ONLY MY THERAPIST AT 1ST, SO IF I FAILED, IT WAS OK. I HAD 4GOTTEN THAT I LATER SHARED MY GOAL W/MK, SO I FELT ACCOUNTABILITY, BUT WAS STILL “SAFE” IF I FAILED.

I’VE BEEN SAYING MORE (I ACTUUALLY SAID “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” 2 JESS IN FEB.—IT JUST “POPPED OUT” & SURPRISED EVEN ME, SO IT WAS CLEARER THAN WHEN I TRIED 2 SAY IT 2 FIA IN MARCH) & SINGING BETTER IN THERAPY, BOTH OF WHICH HAD 2 BE COORELATED 2 BREATHING BETTER. IN ADDITION, A FEW DAYS AGO, I WAS PRACTICING RECORDER, & SOUNDED STRONGER THAN NORMAL (THOUGH IT GETS WORSE IF OTHERS R THERE), SO I CHECKED, & I COULD FEEL MY BREATH! I DECIDED IT WAS TIME 2 TRY A CANDLE!

SUN., WE HAD CAKE W/FAM. I WAITED 4 MOST THE FAM. 2 CLEAR OUT (AS I KNEW MY ABILITY 2 PUCKER WORSENS W/MORE PEOPLE AROUND), & SINCE CANDLES WERE THERE, I TRIED. AFTER 15-30 MIN., & MUCH FLICKERING OF THE FLAME, W/IT HELD CLOSE, I DID IT! THE HARDEST PART IS CONTROLLING MY PBA—I WANT 2 LAUGH & SMILE—WHICH MAKES IT VIRTUALLY IMPOSSIBLE 2 PUCKER & CHANNEL MY BREATH!

VOCALIZATION

SAT., I PLAYED BINGO, W/MY 7-YR. OLD, & SAID “YES” OR “NO” IF I HAD IT.

NOT LONG AGO, JESS WENT INTO R PANTRY, LOOKING 4 SUPPLIES 2 FEED ME. JESS SAID, “OH, SYRUP!” & W/O HESITATION, I SLURRED OUT, “WHERE R U?”

IF I DON’T TRY, I THINK IT, & IT JUST POPS OUT, W/A SLURRED VERSION, & MISSING MANY CONSONANTS (LIKE “W”), YET CLEAR. MY WORDS ARE UNDERSTANDABLE, BUT NOT GREAT. CONTEXT CLUES DEFINITELY HELP!

WHENEVER I DO THAT, I’M TOLD 2 REPEAT IT-THE KIDS COMMENT HOW THEY MISS MY VOICE, & LIKE 2 HEAR IT -THEY ABSOLUTELY LOVE 2 HEAR WORDS, THOUGH ABSOLUTELY HATE MY ATTEMPT 2 MAKE ANY NOISE (MY “GRUNTING NOISE” 2 GET ATTENTION: “AAAAAH!”). DOING THAT (“AAAAAH!”), I ANNOY. UNFORTUNATELY, NEW ATTEMPTS AT WORDS CAN SOUND ANNOYING…SO I’M “SHY” & HAVE “STAGE FRIGHT”. PLUS, I HATE IT ALL-IT SOUNDS NOTHING LIKE ME, BUT THERE’S ALSO A SENSE OF SATISFACTION BY SAYING THINGS, EVEN IF IT’S JUST ALERTING OTHERS THAT I WANT 2 SIGN SOMETHING! I ALL 2 CLEARLY RECALL NOT BEING ABLE 2 DO THAT, & FEELING TERRIBLY JEALOUS OF THOSE WHO WERE HEARING IMPAIRED, & COULD DO IT!

ANYWAY, I TRY 2 REPEAT IT, & IT’S 10x HARDER, & LESS CLEAR. LESS COSONANTS COME OUT, I THINK. BUT, IF IT CAN “POP OUT,” IT’S THERE SOMEWHERE!

HI

RT. NOW, I SHOULDD BE AT MY DAUGHTER, JESSIE’S, GAME…BUT I CAN’T.I AM SO GLAD, THOUGH, THAT SHE’S DISAPPOINTED IF I’M NOT THERE! PLUS, SHE’S DOING WELL–SHE’S HIT 5 HOMERUNS, & MADE THE ALL-STAR TEAM!

HOPE U HAD A GOOD MOTHER’S DAY…MINE WAS HILARIOUS! MK & THE KIDS PUT 2GETHER a spoof on “the 12 day’s of christmas” as “the 12 years of mother’s days”. it was awesome!

DIDN’T EVEN REALIZE THIS WAS MY 12TH MOTHER’S DAY, BUT W/MY LOVE OF MUSIC, THIS WAS GREAT! (I HAVE NO IDEA HOW 2 COMPETE 4 FATHER’S DAY!) LOL

& I’VE MENTIONED STUFF DONE WRONG-LIKE HAVING NO PARKING SPACE 4 ME, BUT LET ME SHARE SOMETHING DONE RT.!: LAST NIGHT, MY DAUGHTE HAD A SCHOOL PERFORMANCE. USUALLY, WE ARRIVE AT LEAST A ½ HR. IN AVANCE, JUST 2 GET A SEAT 4 ME…IT WAS FILLING UP ALREY AT THE FRONT, BUT TURNS OUT THEY’D MADE A SPOT FRONT, CENTER, 4 ME, & EVEN SAVED 2 CHAIRS BY ME!