REMEMBER MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE RECENTLY CRASHED? NOTHING COULD BE RECOVERED…MUCH OF WHAT I LOST WAS HOURS DEVOTED 2 ORGANIZING, FREEBIES 4 SCRAPBOOKING, & THINGS I SCANNED (PICTURES & SCRAPBOOK SUPPLIES). BUT THANKFULLY, I HAVE THE MAJORITY OF WHAT I FEEL IS IMPORTANT: PICTURES & SCRAPBOOK PGS. THAT I’VE MADE, THANKS 2 MY “HEAVENLY BACK-UP”! I SHOULD HAVE HAD MOST EVERYTHING…IF MY COMP. HAD COOPERATED & COPIED COMPLETELY WHEN I’D TRIED 2 COPY, DUE 2 A NAGGING FEELING 2 COPY, JUST 2 DAYS B4 IT CRASHED!

BUT 1ST, I WANT 2 SWITCH COMPUTERS B4 I ADD MUCH MORE, OR RE-DO STUFF, BECAUSE THIS COMP. IS WAY 2 FULL & SLOW & IS DYING! SO, I MAY BE “OUT OF COMMISSION” 4 A BIT, & CRAZY BUSY…UNFORTUNATELY, NO1 CAN DO MUCH 2 HELP…I NEED 2 JUST HAVE LOTS OF TIME, ONCE I SWITCH.

BUT LET ME SHARE AN EXCITING UPDATE B4 LEAVING A BIT!:

BACK AROUND JULY, I STARTED PLAYING THE RECORDER IN MUSIC THERAPY. I HAD A GOAL 2 BLOW OUT A CANDLE BY MY B-DAY. I’D TOLD ONLY MY THERAPIST AT 1ST, SO IF I FAILED, IT WAS OK. I HAD 4GOTTEN THAT I LATER SHARED MY GOAL W/MK, SO I FELT ACCOUNTABILITY, BUT WAS STILL “SAFE” IF I FAILED.

I’VE BEEN SAYING MORE (I ACTUUALLY SAID “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” 2 JESS IN FEB.—IT JUST “POPPED OUT” & SURPRISED EVEN ME, SO IT WAS CLEARER THAN WHEN I TRIED 2 SAY IT 2 FIA IN MARCH) & SINGING BETTER IN THERAPY, BOTH OF WHICH HAD 2 BE COORELATED 2 BREATHING BETTER. IN ADDITION, A FEW DAYS AGO, I WAS PRACTICING RECORDER, & SOUNDED STRONGER THAN NORMAL (THOUGH IT GETS WORSE IF OTHERS R THERE), SO I CHECKED, & I COULD FEEL MY BREATH! I DECIDED IT WAS TIME 2 TRY A CANDLE!

SUN., WE HAD CAKE W/FAM. I WAITED 4 MOST THE FAM. 2 CLEAR OUT (AS I KNEW MY ABILITY 2 PUCKER WORSENS W/MORE PEOPLE AROUND), & SINCE CANDLES WERE THERE, I TRIED. AFTER 15-30 MIN., & MUCH FLICKERING OF THE FLAME, W/IT HELD CLOSE, I DID IT! THE HARDEST PART IS CONTROLLING MY PBA—I WANT 2 LAUGH & SMILE—WHICH MAKES IT VIRTUALLY IMPOSSIBLE 2 PUCKER & CHANNEL MY BREATH!