March 16 (Thursday this week) is what I affectionately call my “stroke-a-versary.” 19 years ago, on March 16, my family was told that I had 24 hours to live, & that if I survived, I’d only be able to blink. Not only have I exceeded the doctor’s expectations, but I have slowly had things like my right arm, speech, & more return…things that assist me in serving the Lord. At the time of my stroke, I was the primary chorister (teaching music to the kids at church who were 18 months old to 12 years old), so naturally, I sang the songs in my head, while I lay in my hospital bed recovering from my stroke. It was there that I learned the power of the primary music I had been teaching, as I (through song) received assurance that the Lord WAS there…& He continues to stay by my side!
I have begun conducting in the primary. That means I welcome the kids & help direct the flow of the meeting. It was through inspiration that I learned how it was possible, & for two years I’ve been trying to figure out the kinks & get brave enough to do it. Ha! At first, I was scared to death (so I believe the Lord helped me that first day), but as with any anxiety, the more I have done it, the easier it has become. & as an added bonus, by doing it, more people (teachers, other leaders, & even some children) are learning how to understand me, so I’m less afraid to speak up when I visit classes or see them in the hall!
Lately, the primary lessons have had a lot to do with people being healed by Christ, & on how Christ can heal us. Since I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s a questioning child somewhere who wonders about me & how it affects their faith in the Lord healing them, I shared this with my primary teachers:
“The primary manual says to, “Explain that sometimes a miraculous healing is not the Lord’s will, but we can still be blessed by His love and comfort.” I know that is the case for me, & that I will eventually be healed in His own time. In the meantime, I have been healed in other ways, & strengthened to endure the ways I have not been healed.“ Often I am unaware of how I’m being strengthened until later. Here’s one:
I now like to start my day with activities that point me in the right direction, so I like to do morning prayer, meditate, & do my personal scripture study. I haven’t always done this. The routine evolved over the last 19 years. On a particularly difficult morning, I decided to listen to the podcast, “Don’t Miss This” for my personal scripture study. I turned it on because it was my routine to hear God’s word then, & I was so tired, I just wanted to listen to it, but they always make me laugh! Between being uplifted by God’s word & the clean humor, it’s like my slate was wiped clean & it changed my entire day! I am so glad I have implemented healthy routines in my life that can aid me in the struggles I face!
Jenny! You are so wonderful! Thank you for your faith filled post and most of all your faith filled life. I still share your story on my own blog ( the questions you answered for me ) and your example of faith in our Savior to many others. You truly are a gift!
This was really needed and comforting to me today. My mom has cancer and is counting on the Lord healing her from it. It’s been a bit of a conflict for me to be supportive in that knowing the Lord’s plan doesn’t always play out how we think it will. I appreciated your thoughts on feeling His love and comfort throughout His entire plan. Thank you Jenny. XO