Friday, 2 things occurred that I’m excited about:


  1. I made toast! For a while now I’ve been opening bags, but only once have I re-tied a bread bag–it’s hard w/1 hand! But yesterday I figured out a way to do it: normally I twist the bag, & have the weight of the bread keep it closed, so I did that, but took it a step farther & slipped in the bread tie…& while I did that, I had bread cooking in my toaster (which surprised me at how easily I could push the lever down!)


  1. While “walking” (so my “talking hand was occupied), I held several lengthy conversations! This fulfilled an unspoken dream! Lately, I’ve been thrilled if I am able to tell someone “thank u” as I go through a door they are holding open for me. I guess, in reality, I’ve been doing speaking as i move for a while, cuz I speak to my therapist, as I ride my horse (no way am I letting go, although I’m sitting pretty well w/o side support now!). In fact, I recently wrote this about horse therapy:


This is my 2nd year of Equine (horse) therapy, which is kind of like physical therapy.  However, I took Physical Therapy for about 2 years, & the progress I had seems to pale in comparison!  For 10 years, I’ve been like a ragdoll, & lacked core strength .  Nothing seemed to help me…but after just a few months of riding a horse, the strength in my core was remarkable!  I can now lean forward, push myself back up, sit in a chair without arms unassisted, etc.  Equine (“horse”) therapy isn’t just limited to building core strength, building endurance, or helping a person to work on their balance, but it has also strengthened my upper body, replaced many of my anxieties with confidence, & helped me to strengthen my breath support, so after 10 years, I am finally able speak again!


The hardest time for me to speak is in the morning: I seem to wake slowly, & I have trouble getting my muscles working & coordinated.  I also feel like my PBA medicine has depression & anxiety meds in it, so once I take it, it seems to weaken my speech anxiety or something, & I start talking clearer & easier. It seems like I tend to “think too much”, so sfter my anxiety lessens, i  seem to start thinking less about how to speak, & just do it!

Sometimes, it seems like due to my anxiety, I can’t say anything, or I whisper (the whisper isn’t from a lack of breath support, cuz I’m often repeating something I said louder). Recently, we discovered that iI’m louder & clearer if I read something (though, usually I can’t be so familiar with it that i anticipate things)!  I can’t let my brain get involved, & start “over-thinking”, or speaking becomes tough!  Crazy, huh?  My music therapist tested it out, & wrote out a phrase I had trouble saying earlier, & when I read it, it was so effortless & clear, I shocked her!

One comment

  1. Wow, Jenny!! You really are improving by leaps and bounds these days!! I am so happy for you! Can’t wait to see you again and have a conversation without “Jenny-ese”! And I knew there was a reason we both love horses – not only are they beautiful and fun to ride, but they know how to help you help yourself! : ) I’m so impressed with all you’ve gained from your equine therapy!! Love, Cara

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