THX 4 THE PRAYERS—IT REALLY HELPED, & HELPED ME BATTLE PBA! IT WAS MY UNSEEN ARMY!

I MANAGED NOT 2 CRY–ACTUALLY, IT’S HOW U C IT: THERE WAS “SILENT CRYING.” BUT THERE WAS NO HOWLING, OR STRAIGHTENING MY LEFT LEG, OR ANYTHING.

THIS WAS A BIG DEAL—NOT JUST BECAUSE I COULD DO SOMETHING I LOVED & NEVER SAW AS POSSIBLE….& NOT BECAUSE THE ACTUAL PART MEANT SO VERY MUCH, BUT BECAUSE I DID WHAT I HAVE TRIED 2 DO FOR ALMOST 5 YRS.—WHICH WAS 2 NOT HAVE ACTUAL OUT LOUD TEARS, DRAWING ATTENTION 2 MYSELF. SO, 2 ME, IT WAS A SUCCESS!

REMEMBER THE LIST I STARTED LAST DEC., “BLESSINGS FROM A STROKE”? THOUGHT OF 3 MORE:
1. I CAN DISCIPLINE MY KIDS ANYWHERE—EVEN ON STAGE!
2. IF A ZIPPER BREAKS IN BACK, WHO CARES? NO1 CAN TELL! & STAPLES WORK WONDERS!
3. I CAN GIVE THE VISUAL REPRESENTATION OF THE WORDS, LIKE I SAID WAS NEAT IN MY ENSIGN ARTICLE (WHEN SONGS WERE SIGNED). (LIKE THE SIGN 4 “GOD”—A PALM STRETCHED HEAVENWARD, & EYES LOOK UP—IS JUST A NEAT VISUAL REPRESENTATION).

I’VE SLOWLY BEEN ADDING 2 IT, & AM APROACHING #50! I AM SHOCKED THERE’S THAT MANY, ESP. KNOWING THAT I’VE 4GOT SOME!

IN THE PLAY, THERE WAS 2 ANGEL LINES. THE 1ST LINE, I PLANNED 2 START SIGNING, BUT SINCE IT WAS 2 LONG, I’D “PASS THE TORCH” 2 JESS, SO SHE COULD READ THE REST. WHEN JESSIE READ, IT WAS THE HARDEST. I SILENTLY CRIED AT THE END…SHE WAS SO NERVOUS, & I WAS SO PROUD OF HER!

LAST X-MAS I MENTIONED HOW I RELATE 2 THIS SONG—NOT AS IF I WAS A HEAVENLY ANGEL, BUT THE HERE & NOW: “HANDEL’S DREAM” FROM THE UNFORGOTTEN CAROLS, BY MICHAEL McLEAN.

THE STORY IS ESSENTIALLY ABOUT AN ANGEL, WHO CAN’T SING (NEITHER CAN I, NOW, THOUGH I HEAR SONGS IN MY HEAD/HEART), BUT AUDITIONS ANYWAY, 2 ANNOUCE CHRIST’S BIRTH. I LOVE HIS STATEMENT THAT “IF U COULD HEAR WHAT’S IN MY HEART, U’D LET ME SING!”

HE’S LATER INFORMED THAT HE HAS A “DIFFERENT” VOICE (I BELIEVE I DO 2), & THAT SOMEDAY, HE WILL BE GIVEN A VOICE, & HEARD (I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT I WILL 2).

THAT NIGHT I WAS GIVEN A VOICE, & HEARD!

BUT, I WANTED THE FOCUS ON CHRIST, NOT ON ME. I’D REALLY PRAYED NOT 2 CRY, DESPITE MY EXTREME EMOTION— I REFUSED 2 LET MYSELF THINK OF “HANDEL’S DREAM,” BUT I TOTALLY FELT IT!

THANK U 4 YOUR HELP!