HAD INTERNET TROUBLE FOR 3 WEEKS, & ABSOLUTELY NO INTERNET FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS…SEEMS SOMEWHAT BETTER NOW, BUT AM SLOWLY ANSWERING ALMOST 200 MESSAGES! GOT RID OF THE EASY 1’S, & AM PROUD 2 BE AT ABOUT 100 NOW! FROM HERE ON OUT, IT’S A SLOW PROCESS, AS I TYPE W/1 FINGER.

I’M TAKING MUSIC THERAPY THOUGH, & WOULD U BELIEVE THAT AS I PLAY PIANO FASTER (MY TEMPO STARTED AROUND 55, & IS NOW 72), IT TRANSLATES 2 TYPING FASTER?!?

MEANWHILE, I’D USE THE COMP. SET UP 4 ME, AT MY PARENTS HOUSE, 2 GET INTERNET, ON OCCASSION…BUT EVEN THAT’S BEEN IF-Y, SINCE MOM’S ALSO HAVING INTERNET TROUBLE!

BEEN NICE IN WAYS—RECONNECTING W/FAM., & CAN’T BEGIN 2 MENTION HOW STRESSED I FEEL, BY MY HALF-WRITTEN, SAVED, UNSENT EMAI’S. I GOT STRESSED JUST SORTING THEM! BUT, IN SOME WAYS I WANT 2 DRASTICALLY CHANGE. THERE WERE TIMES I WAS ACTUALLY HAPPIER. SO, BEAR W/ME, AS I ATTEMPT 2 CHANNEL THINGS DIFF.

BUT, IT STANK 2 HAVE NO “PHONE” & WAY 2 CONTACT OTHERS (I HAD TIMES WHEN I JUST NEEDED 2 TALK 2 A FRIEND, BUT WAS COMPLETELY ISOLATED—IT WAS SO PAINFUL 2 HAVE NO WAY 2 REACH OUT 2 ANY1).

IF I NEEDED 2, I WROTE AN EMAIL AT HOME ON A WORD DOCUMENT, ALSO LISTING THE EMAIL ADDRESS & SUBJECT, BURNED IT 2 A CD, WHICH MY MOM OR I COULD COPY & PASTE, 2 SEND AN EMAIL.

NOW, MK BUILT ME A NEW COMP., WHICH ARRIVED THURSDAY…NOT SURE WHEN I I’LL BE AVAILABLE 4 ANYTHING RT. NOW!

SO, SOME FOOD 4 THOUGHT:

• “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It
ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as
patience, faith, fortitude, and humility. All that we suffer and all that we
endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our
characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and
charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God. . . .and it
is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the
education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like
our Father and Mother in heaven. . . “–Orson F. Whitney in Faith Proceeds the Miracle by Spencer W. Kimball.L,
p. 98.
• WE SHOULD NOT COMPARE R SUFFERINGS W/THE SUFFERINGS OF ANOTHER.—MY YAHOO STROKE GROUP
• Focus on your abilities, not your disability. When I am so self absorbed and worried about me, my life falls apart, but when I am focusing on helping another I don’t have time to worry about me. .—MY YAHOO STROKE GROUP