A UKRANIAN HOLIDAY TWIST

THOUGHT I’D SHARE: WE ARE PICKING UP MAYA (THE LITTLE GIRL, FROM THE UKRAINE, WHO SPENT THE SUMMER W/US) THIS WEEK. SOPH IS SUPER EXCITED! I HAVE MIXED FEELINGS THOUGH, CUZ I’M GOING TO MISS HER BROTHER DIMA…HE’LL BE HERE, BUT LONG STORY SHORT, IS STAYING W/ANOTHER FAMILY CLOSE BY, & I LOVED HIM!

I was curious if over time your PBA has improved?

IT’S SUPPOSED TO, BUT I’M NOW TAKING THE PBA MEDS, NUEDEXTA. IT HAS CHANGED MY LIFE! I STILL HAVE SOME OF THESE SYMPTOMS, BUT IF I HAVE THE MEDS, I’M WAY BETTER! I CAN SOMEWHAT CONTROL MY LAUGHTER: FOR EX., IF I HEAR SOMETHING FUNNY, I CAN CHUCKLE NOW, & IF I LAUGH HARD, I CAN STOP THE LAUGH MUCH QUICKER. I STILL MAY LAUGH AT INAPPROPRIATE TIMES (LIKE IF SOME1 GETS HURT), BUT THANKFULLY I’VE BEEN ABLE TO QUICKLY STOP THOSE.

I USED TO CRY AT ANYTHING & EVERYTHING, SO I AVOIDED MANY GROUP GATHERINGS, ESP. BAPTISMS, WEDDINGS, & FUNERALS. MY KIDS’ PROBABLY HATED HAVING ME AT AWARD CEREMONIES, PERFORMANCES, ETC., CUZ IF I FELT PROUD OF THEM, I OFTEN HOWLED-NOT JUST CRIED!

THE PBA PILLS SEEM TO HAVE SOME ANTI-DEPRESSANT & ANTI-ANXIETY MEDS. IT ISN’T PRETTY IF I RUN OUT 🙂 , & THE WHOLE WORLD APPEARS GREYER. I CAN FEEL THE MEDS WEAR OFF, & I’M EASILY UPSET IN THE MORNING!

QUICK UPDATE

THE WEATHER HAS BEEN CRAZY HERE…IT WAS FREEZING COLD FRIDAY, BUT WAS 80 DEGREES ON TUESDAY! I THOUGHT I WAS INSANE STARTING HORSE THERAPY IN THE WINTER, CUZ THE COLD IS NOT MY FRIEND, BUT IT HAS BEEN COLD THE DAYS I DON’T GO! SO STRANGE, BUT NICE! I THINK GOD IS ON MY SIDE! LOL

IN HORSE THERAPY, WE USED A REAL SADDLE LAST TUESDAY…I DON’T KNOW WHY IT’S SO DIFFERENT, BUT IT WAS LIKE 10 TIMES HARDER! I WAS HANGING ON FOR DEAR LIFE SO HARD THAT MY RIGHT ARM GOT SORE, & I COULDN’T RELAX MY LEGS–I WAS PROBABLY SQUEEZING THE POOR HORSE! BUT MY THERAPIST HAD A FIRM GRIP ON ME, & MK (MK’S SO PROTECTIVE OF ME–I DON’T THINK HE’S A FAN OF ME HORSEBACK RIDING, BUT HE’S A GOOD GUY & SUPPORTS ME ANYWAY!) & 2 VOLUNTEERS WALKED W/US, SO I KNEW I WAS OK–I JUST COULDN’T SEEM TO GET THAT MESSAGE TO MY LEGS (OR MAYBE IT’S JUST CAUSE I GET STIFF ALL OVER, WHEN I WORK HARD)! LOL

MY THERAPIST COMPLIMENTED HOW I SIT SO TALL, W/MY SHOULDERS BACK. LOL I FEEL LIKE I’M SLOUCHING! BUT IT’S ALL THOSE YEARS OF DANCING! I STILL FEEL MY TEACHER TOUCHING MY SHOULDERS, GENTLY PUSHING THEM BACK, & TELLING ME, “SHOULDERS BACK, JENNY!”

What did you say to the horse?

MOSTLY I TALKED TO THE THERAPIST, & IT WAS EXCITING HOW WELL SHE UNDERSTOOD ME (THOUGH I BET SHE IS USED 2 HEARING OTHERS LIKE ME!)

I TOLD THE HORSE, “LET’S GO” & “HO” WHEN I NEEDED TO START/STOP TO RE-GAIN MY BALANCE. I DON’T KNOW IF THE HORSES ARE SO USED 2 PEOPLE LIKE ME TAT HEE UNDERSTOOD ME, BUT IF NOT, THEY DO VERY WELL AT MAKING U FEEL LIKE THE HORSE UNDERSTANDS U!