Update

SUNDAY

I’VE BEEN TRYING NOT 2 POST, SO EVERY1 WOULD SEE OUR CHRISTMAS VIDEO, BUT SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE THEN, THAT I DON’T KNOW WHERE 2 START!
I’VE BEEN KEEPING TABS ON THE THINGS I’VE TYPED SINCE MY LAST POST (ESSENTIALLY POSTING 2 MYSELF! LOL, SO I MAY WRITE ANOTHER VERY LONG POST! BUT 4 NOW, I’LL BE SOMEWHAT BRIEF.

4 QUITE AWHILE, I’VE BEEN TRYING 2 WORK UP THE NERVE 2 TALK, & NOT SIGN, ALL DAY. I’VE DONE IT 4 BRIEF PERIODS…& I DON’T CARE 2 DISCUSS THEM. BUT I KEEP CHICKENING OUT OF DOING IT 4 A LONGER PERIOD. HOWEVER, I WANT MY 1ST TRY 2 HAVE A BETTER CHANCE AT BEING A POSITIVE EXPIERIENCE, & I FEEL LIKE I’M NEAR A “PEAK” IN MY “SPEAKING CYCLE.” HOWEVER, I’M AFRAID OF IT NOT STAYING MUCH LONGER THIS MONTH…I COULD BE WRONG, BUT I CAN’T CHICKEN OUT OF DOING IT IF I POST IT—SO I’M TRYING IT SUNDAY (2MORROW).

I USUALLY STRUGGLE THE FIRST TIME I TRY SOMETHING, BUT I KNOW IT GETS BETTER THE NEXT TIME I DO IT. COME SPEAK WITH ME IF YOU SEE ME, HOWEVER PEOPLE NEED TO GIVE ME A CHANCE 2 RESPOND, BE PATIENT WITH ME, & TRY NOT TO FINISH MY WORDS. I MAY NOT GET TO SAY MORE THAN A COUPLE WORDS, BUT THAT IS OKAY. JUST DON’T GATHER IN A LARGE GROUP AND GIVE ME PERFORMANCE ANXIETY., OR TRY TO COMFORT ME IF YOU THINK I AM ANXIOUS! (MK DOES THIS WELL. HE MIGHT LOOK INSENSATIVE,BUT IT HELPS KEEP MY PBA IN CHECK.) PLEASE TRY TO ENCOURAGE ME TO TALK RATHER THAN RELYING ON ASL. ALSO, LIE TO ME A TELL ME HOW GOOD I SOUND. YOU ARE EACH ALLOWED 1 TIME TO SAY MY “WOOKIE’ LANGUAGE IS GETTING BETTER.

SO MUCH FOR BEING BRIEF!

ARTICLE & YOU TUBE

ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY BLOG, IS A LINK TO MY YOU-TUBE PAGE, WHICH HAS MANY OF THE VIDEO’S U’VE SEEN (LIKE “JENNY’S STORY, OR THE INTRO 2 ME, OR ME SAYING THE ALPHABET, OR MY OLD BYU ACAPELLA GROUP, THAT SHOWS ME SINGING…) HOWEVER, MY DAD WAS INTERVIEWED FOR AN INVESTING MAGAZINE, & THEY WROTE ABOUT ME TOO (THE STORY IS FROM THE DECEMBER 24, 2012 ISSUE OF FORTUNE. IN THE INVESTOR’S GUIDE–WHICH HAS A COVER WITH GOLD STACKS PICTURED), & AS IT WAS ASSEMBLED, IT REMINDED & MOTIVATED ME 2 ADD THESE VIDEOS:

JENNY LYNN (MOM) GIVES WHEELCHAIR WAGON RIDES TO ZACH (7), JESSIE (5), & SOPHIE (3):

ZACH LYNN,6 YEARS OLD, TRIES OUT MOM’S TILT TABLE–UPSIDE DOWN!:

SOPHIE LYNN WEARS A PACIFIER “TRACHE” TO THE PARTY CELEBRATING MOM’S TRACHE REMOVAL:

WHEN JENNY LYNN HAD ALL 3 TUBES (A TRACHE, CATHTER, & FEEDING TUBE) REMOVED, HER HUSBAND, MARK, THREW HER A TUBE PARTY, WHERE EVERYONE WHO ATTENDED HAD TO WEAR TUBES–SO JENNY WAS THE ONLY PERSON NOT WEARING TUBES.

THE ATTENDEES HAD ALL HAD A SIGNIFICANT ROLE IN JENNY’S PROGRESS, SO MARK HAD MADE THE VIDEO (NAMED “JENNY’S STORY” ON YOUTUBE) TO SHOW AT THE PARTY.

MUSIC:
“Fatboy Slim” from Moulin Rouge:

RITALIN

I STARTED TAKING RITALIN. I LOVE IT! IT HELPS ME FOCUS, PROCESS & RESPOND FASTER, & I’M MORE SENSATIVE 2 THE SUBTLE SPIRITUAL PROMPTINGS! ONCE AGAIN, I HAVE SEEN HOW GOD HAS TURNED A BAD SITUATION GOOD, BECUZ THE DOCTOR WHO PERSCRIBED RITALIN, IS A REFERRAL FROM THE NEUROLOGIST THAT I MET, BECUZ OF MY FALL!

MY LAST POST, I STARTED WRITING THE NIGHT B4, BUT I WAS CONFUSED HOW 2 SAY THINGS…THE NEXT MORNING I TRIED RITALIN 4 THE 1ST TIME, & THEN WENT 2 WORK ON MY POST, WHICH WAS SO EASY 2 WRITE, & SEEMED 2 “FALL” INTO PLACE!

L8R THAT DAY, I SAW THE MOVIE, “LIFE OF PI” & LOVED IT, BUT I’M NOT SURE IF I LOVED IT, BECUZ IT REALLY WAS GOOD, OR BECUZ I WAS ABLE 2 PROCESS A MOVIE WELL 4 THE 1ST TIME IN 8 YEARS! LOL MY FAVORITE QUOTE FROM THE MOVIE WAS:
“Even when God seemed to have abandoned me, he was watching. Even when he seemed indifferent to my suffering, he was watching. And when I was beyond all hope of saving, he gave me rest. Then he gave me a sign to continue my journey.”
Life of Pi movie

I FOUND THE QUOTE ON A WEBSITE, WHERE IT EXPLAINED WHY I LIKED THE QUOTE: One of the greatest gifts my life journey has helped me with was the deeper relationship I have now with God. And hearing the above quote in the movie Life of Pi touched my soul because I have experienced it time and time again. And I feel so grateful that yet another cinematic experience can communicate something so personal to me AND that I can now recommend to others going through difficult times.
(http://motivatorman.blogspot.com/2012/11/tip608-god-in-cinema-life-of-pi.html )

LAST WEEK

CHRISTMAS HAS FINALLY BEGUN! I HAVE HEARD TONS OF CHRISTMAS STUFF ALREADY, BUT CHRISTMAS NEVER “STARTS”’ UNTIL I LISTEN 2 MICHAEL McCLEAN’S FORGOTTEN CAROLS, & I TURNED THEM ON AS I WRITE THIS POST:

I HAVE BEEN REMINDED HOW GOD CARES ABOUT & PROTECTS ME…I JUST HAVE 2 LISTEN! IN THE BOOK CALLED Hearing The Voice of the Lord, Elder Boyd K. Packer (of the LDS church) said: “The Spirit does not get our attention by shouting or shaking us with a heavy hand. Rather it whispers. It caresses so gently that if we are preoccupied we may not feel it at all. . . . Occasionally it will press just firmly enough for us to pay heed..”

LONG STORY SHORT, I HAVE HAD COMPUTER TROUBLES THIS LAST WEEK, & HAVE HAD 2 RESTORE A LOT. AS I HAVE DONE THINGS, I KEEP GETTING THESE THOUGHTS (WHICH ARE MORE LIKE REMINDERS) OF THINGS I WAS PROMPTED 2 DO DURING THE PREVIOUS WEEKS. THESE THINGS HAVE ASSISTED ME IN MY RESTORATION PROCESS.

4 EX., I HAVE BEEN DABBLING FOR YEARS IN WRITING A BOOK. THEN, I JUST STOPPED, NOT SURE OF THE DIRECTION 2 TAKE IT…UNTIL RECENTLY, WHEN I’VE HAD SOME IDEAS THROWN MY WAY, THAT RESULTED IN SOME PRETTY BIG CHANGES, GIVING ME THE DIRECTION I NEEDED, SO I COULD RETURN TO WORKING ON IT! I WOULD’VE BEEN SICK IF I HAD LOST THAT WHEN I HAD MY COMPUTER TROUBLES THIS WEEK! BUT A WHILE AGO, FOR NO REASON AT ALL, I PUT A COPY OF IT ON MY LAPTOP. SO, WHEN MY COMPUTER HAD TROUBLE, I WAS REMINDED OF THAT COPY, & THAT I WAS FINE!

THIS IS JUST 1 EX. OF MANY. BUT SOME THINGS WERE NOT RESTORED, & I CAN SEE HOW EVEN THOSE ARE A BLESSING!

HERE’S AN EX. OF 1 OF THOSE: I KEEP A SORT OF “TO DO” LIST FOR MY CAREGIVER/“HELPER”/PERSONAL ASSISSTANT. ACTUALLY, I HAVE 2 LISTS. THEY SEE 1 LIST—THE LIST OF CURRENT JOBS & THERAPY I WANT 2 DO THAT WEEK.
THE JOBS ON THE 2ND LIST, THEY NEVER SEE UNTIL THE JOBS GET DONE ON THE 1ST LIST. I ADD JOB TO THE 2ND LIST ALL THE TIME, BUT OFTEN IT IS THINGS I’D LIKE 2 DO AT THE MOMENT, BUT OTHER JOBS “TRUMP” IT—IN FACT, I HAVE HAD SOME JOBS STAY ON THE 2ND LIST FOR YEARS. (I USED 2 BE BOTHERED BY IT, BUT NOW I AM OK W/IT—IT’S JUST HOW IT IS). ANYWAY, RIGHT B4 MY OLD CAREGIVER/“HELPER”/PERSONAL ASSISSTANT, CARA, LEFT, I WAS GETTING SO BAD AT DOING THE NEEDED THERAPY, BECUZ I PUT MORE STOCK INTO FINISHING MY LISTS THAN DOING MY THERAPY.

WHEN I GOT MY NEW CAREGIVER/“HELPER”/PERSONAL ASSISSTANT, ANGIE, I SEEMED 2 GET A NEW DESIRE 2 DO MORE THERAPY, BUT AS THE 2ND LIST HAS GROWN, I HAVE STARTED DOING LESS THERAPY. HOWEVER, THIS WEEK, I HAVE BEEN TRYING 2 FIGURE OUT HOW 2 PUT MORE THERAPY BACK INTO MY SCHEDULE. WHEN I LOST A MORE RECENT COPY OF THE 2ND LIST, AT 1ST, I WAS FRUSTRATED, BECUZ THERE WAS NO REASON THE RECENT LIST COULDN’T BE RESTORED…IT SHOULD’VE BEEN BACKED-UP! BUT, NOT HAVING IT HAS TURNED MY FOCUS BACK 2 THERAPY…& SUDDENLY I SAW A DOOR OPEN! THIS IS WHERE I THINK THE LORD WANTS ME 2 FOCUS RT. NOW, BECUZ I’VE HAD SO MANY SMALL MIRACLES IN MY LIFE SINCE MY FALL (THIS SUMMER), LEADING ME 2 SITUATIONS & DOCTORS THAT HAVE INVITED MORE PHYSICAL THERAPY INTO MY LIFE! SO LOSING IT APPEARS UNFORTUNATE, BUT IS ACTUALLY A SMALL BLESSING! HOW DOES GOD DO THAT: HE KEEPS MANAGING 2 TURN THE BAD INTO GOOD! I HAVE WITNESSED THIS SO MUCH RECENTLY, I CAN’T RECORD IT EVERYTIME! BUT 2 DO IT W/SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS MY LIST, REMINDS ME HOW GOD KNOWS & CARES ABOUT ME PERSONALLY.