My last post was not a search for sympathy (though I appreciate all comments I received)! But I did want everyone to know that I am “normal”, & I wanted to share how I am dealing with it. I am actually grateful because I am finally learning something that I kept trying to earn, & had run out of ways to learn it!
However, getting myself to post has been SO hard, & over the months, I have started 6 different posts, & I want to share what I have: Here’s the 1st post…I started to write it as I was getting better (after being sick a total of 3 weeks: 1 week with the flu, then I remained congested, but since I can’t cough, it stayed in my lungs & must have gotten infected, because once I had antibiotics, I felt like a new person!) I added a bit to what I started, just finishing the thought I had. Here it is:
I always assumed that I was someone who did not take my health for granted. I know how fortunate I am for every small movement my body has, since the doctor’s prognosis was that I’d only blink my eyes. But, I realized that I take breathing for granted. It just is always there! So, I wondered if I am that way with other things, & I realized I am: I thought of how I was when Mark or my kids were new in my life.
When I met Mark, there were things he did that no one had done for me before, & I Ioved that he did them! I still love when he does those things, but I think they are more “expected” now because that is “just how Mark is.”
It is the same with my kids. We were aware that Zach was a peacemaker in our home, but when Zach left home, we realized just how much of a peacemaker he was. When Jessie joined our family, there was this zest for life that came w/her, & it has become such a constant in our life, that it will surely leave a hole & change our lives when she leaves soon (she is 18 years old now!) Soph has filled our home with music, & is always willing to help me. We have 2 more years w/her, & better not take that for granted!