IMPOSSIBLE?

I WAS TOLD I’D NEVER SPEAK AGAIN, W/O THE AID OF A MACHINE, & I REMEMBER THINKING, “YEAH, RIGHT!”

“Everything is possible. The impossible just takes longer. ”
Dan Brown

MY HUSBAND’S, MARK’S, DAD VISITED FOR 2 DAYS LAST WEEK (TUESDAY NIGHT & WEDNESDAY), & WOULD JUST SIT & TALK TO ME—HE KNOWS HOW 2 READ MY ASL, BUT HE WILL NOT LET ME SIGN. WHEN I’D 1ST START TALKING 2 HIM, SOMETIMES IT WAS HARD IN THE BEGINNING 2 SPEAK, BUT ONCE I’D “WARMED UP” & RELAXED, I WOULD TALK VERY CLEAR & WELL!

WHEN I WOKE ON WEDNESDAY, I KNEW HE’D WANT ME 2 TALK, BUT I COULDN’T SPEAK, FOR SOME REASON (USUALLY IF I WARM UP WELL THE PREVIOUS DAY—WHICH I DID—I TALK WELL), BUT I DIDN’T TALK WELL! IN FACT, WHEN I TRIED 2 WARM UP MY VOICE THAT MORNING, I COULDN’T DO MUCH! IT WAS VERY FRUSTRATING, & I WANTED TO GIVE UP…& I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE IF MARK’S DAD HADN’T BEEN THERE, BUT I KNEW I HAD TO SOMEHOW TALK, CUZ HIS DAD’S TOO STUBBORN TO GIVE IN TO A “BAD SPEAKING DAY!”

MY HELPER, ANGIE, BRINGS HER SON, & HE IS MUCH THE SAME WAY, ONLY HE’S NOT STUBBORN—HE JUST KNOWS I TALK, SO HE’LL ASK ME STUFF & JUST EXPECT MY ANSWER…4 EX., IF HIS MOM RAN UPSTAIRS, HE’LL FIND ME, LOOK UP AT ME, & ASK ME WHERE SHE IS. (SIDENOTE: HOW I HATED THE PAST WHEN KIDS WOULD ASK ME STUFF LIKE THAT, & ALL I COULD DO WAS STARE BACK!) I TELL HIM, “SHE UPSTAIRS. BE RIGHT BACK.” OFTEN I HAVE 2 KEEP REPEATING, “BE RIGHT BACK,” BUT JUST HEARING ME TALK, EVEN IF HE CAN’T UNDERSTAND ME, USUALLY HELPS HIM, SOMEHOW!

IN THE APPROACHING SEASON OF GRATITUDE, I WANT 2 EXPRESS MY THANKS 4 A FEW THINGS:
1. THERE IS NOTHING SO THRILLING AS BEING ASKED IF I HAVE EATEN, & BE ABLE 2 RESPOND, “YES, I FED MYSELF!” BESIDES THE FACT THAT I VOCALIZE MY RESPONSE, IT IS GLORIOUS 2 BE ABLE 2 PICK & FEED MYSELF! OF COURSE, MY CHOICES OF WHAT I FIX MYSELF ARE LIMITED, SO I USUALLY HAVE OTHERS GET THE FOOD FOR ME. BUT I USUALLY ONLY EAT ½ OF MY FOOD, & I LOVE BEING ABLE TO PICK WHAT PARTS I’LL EAT (I KNOW THERE HAVE BEEN TIMES I WAS FULL, BUT KEPT EATINGUNTIL I WAS FED THE PIECE I WANTED! BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, IT CAN BE “DANGEROUS” THAT I CAN FEED MYSELF!)
2. THERE ALSO IS NOTHING SO THRILLING AS:2 BE ASKED A QUESTION FROM ANOTHER ROOM, BE UNDERSTOOD, & RECEIVE A RESPONSE!
3. BUT IT’S JUST AS THRILLING 2 NEED A GLASS OF WATER & GET IT MYSELF?(MIND U, IT’S STILL TONS FASTER IF SOME1 ELSE DOES IT, SO I USUALLY HAVE HELP STILL, BUT THE ANXIETY FROM THE DEPENDENCE IS GONE!)
4. TALKING TO SOMEONE WHILE EATING, & NOT NEEDING 2 CLEAN MY HAND OFF 1ST.
5. HOLDING A SPEAKING CONVERSATION WITH SOMEONE.
6. BEING UNDERSTOOD THROUGH THE PHONE.

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