TUESDAY , MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE BUSTED, & I’VE LOST A LOT FROM THE LAST 6 MO.: SCANS I’VE DONE (I DO A LOT), LISTS CARA’S MADE (HOPE SHE HAS THEM), SCRAP. PGS. I’VE MADE (BEST I CAN DO IS COPY THE LOW RESOLUTION FILES ON MY WEBSITE), FREEBIES 4 DIGI. SCRAP., ALL THE WORK I DID W/MY MOM TUESDAY MORN., CARA’S UPDATED “TO DO” LIST, ETC. LUCKILY, ALL SCRAP. STUFF I BOUGHT SHOULD BE ON CDS, (MINUS FONTS, FREEBIES & SCANNED STUFF), & I THINK MY COMP. HAS MOST PICS, JUST NOT ORGANIZED (BUT I’VE LOST EVERY PIC. FROM MARK’S PHONE….) UNFORTUNATELY, I COPIED PICS IN MARCH, & HAD ALL THE PICS SINCE THEN (THAT I’VE DOWNLOADED), UNORGANIZED, BUT ON MY COMP., SO I DIDN’T EVEN TRY 2 COPY MY PICS (THERE WAS OTHER REASONS, AS WELL, 2 NOT COPY).

IT’S ALL BEEN THERE, WAITING 2 SWITCH COMPS., 2 MY NEW COMP., BUT I WASN’T READY & MY BURNER STOPPED WORKING, SO I COULDN’T BURN A BACK-UP. I STILL AM REFUSING 2 TRULLY DISCOVER WHAT’S GONE. NOT SURE IF IT’S DENIAL, OR FAITH THAT IT’S AN UNFORTUNATE, BUT TEMPORARY, POSITION.

A FEW DAYS AGO, MK ASKED ABOUT SWITCHING COMP. I WASN’T READY, BUT HAD AN URGE 2 COPY MY FILES, SO MY OLD COMP. HAD MORE RECENT COPIES OF MY FILES ON MY OLD COMP. I TRIED, BUT SOME WOULDN’T COPY, & I WASN’T SURE WHAT 2 DO…SO I STOPPED TRYING. WASN’T TIME 4 IT. WISH I’D FIGURED IT OUT!!

I’M CONVINCED R CAT, TIGER, IS 2 BLAME! HE KEEPS KNOCKING MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE DOWN FROM OUR COMP. SHELF. IT WAS WORKING FINE TUES. MORNING, NOTHING HAPPENED, IT STARTED MAKING CLICKING SOUNDS, & NOW ISN’T RECOGNIZED IF I RE-BOOT. ASSUMING MY CAT HAS KNOCKED IT 1 TOO MANY TIMES.

I KEEP TRYING 2 FIND A SAFE PLACE: IT USED 2 BE PLUGGED IN FRONT, BUT TIGER WAS ENTICED BY THE WIRES, & EVENTUALLY UNPLUGGED & KNOCKED IT DOWN & BROKE IT (I ACTUALLY WATCHED HOPELESSLY, AS I’D RUNG & WAS TRYING 2 MAKE HIM STOP, & WAITED 4 MY BELL 2 BE ANSWERED).

SO, I GOT A NEW 1 (MOM DECIDED SHE DIDN’T WANT HERS, WHEN I WAS C-ING IF MY OLD EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE THAT SHE GOT ME, WOULD WORK IF I JUST HAD NEW, UNCHEWED WIRES). I PLUGGED IT IN BACK, BUT TIGER JUMPS ON MY TABLE, THEN JUMPS 2 MY PRINTER STAND, SO HE CAN CHECK OUT A WIRE HEAVEN BEHIND MY MONITER.

AT 1ST, WHEN HE DID IT, HE JUST UNPLUGGED MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE AS HE CROSSED. IT DROVE ME NUTS, SO I HAD MOM GET A THIN, BREATHABLE FABRIC 2 COVER THE WIRES. IT HID THE WIRES & WORKED AWESOME, BUT MY COMP. OVERHEATED, & I COULDN’T GET ONLINE 4 ALMOST A MONTH…STILL TRYING 2 RE-COOP FROM THAT, & HAVE A BACK-LOG OF ALMOST 200 EMAILS.

A WHILE AGO, WE STARTED HAVING INTERNET PROBLEMS–MY PRINTER STAND WAS RUINING THE PLUG, SO WE HAD 2 ANGLE MY PRINTER STAND.

AS SOON AS WE DID , HE’D KNOCK MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE 2 THE FLOOR, AS HE BOUNDED FROM MY TABLE 2 MY MONITER. I’VE HAD SEVERAL SCARES & OFTEN LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM ALONE (SO HE’S LOCKED OUT). I WAS ON 2 HIM, THOUGH (IE. I NEVER ORDERED SCRAP. STUFF UNLESS IT WAS BURNED ON A CD, SO THERE WAS A HARD COPY), & TRIED 2 COPY FOLDERS (AS I SAID), BUT MANY WOULD COPY ¾ OF THE WAY, THEN STOP, SAYING IT COULDN’T COPY SOMETHING, OR I’D LATER FIND AN UNUSABLE FILE (LIKE IT’D ACT LIKE IT COPIED ALL MY PICS, BUT LATER I’D FIND A PIC. ONLY ½ COPIED, RENDERING THE FILE USELESS). I WASN’T SURE WHAT 2 DO, SO RATHER THAN FIGURE IT OUT, I SPENT TIME PREPARING 2 SWITCH COMP. SO, SOME STUFF IS VERY RECENT, & SOME IS NOT…

ODDLY, I’M NOT FREAKING OUT 2 MUCH. PRAYING 4 DATA RECOVERY, ASAP, BUT MAYBE IT’S THE RELIEF OF AN EXCUSE FROM MY NOW 2 BUSY LIFE. OR MAYBE IT’S BECAUSE NONE OF THIS WAS EVEN REMOTELY SOMETHING I WORRIED ABOUT 5 YRS. AGO, SO WHY WORRY NOW? MAYBE BECAUSE WHILE IT’S ALMOST MY WHOLE TEMPORAL LIFE, MY SPIRITUAL LIFE (MY FAMILY) IS FINE–& ISN’T THAT WHAT MATTERS? OR MAYBE IT’S THE MISPLACED PEACE THAT THAT I FEEL THE INFO CAN BE RECOVERED…JUST UNSURE WHEN IT’LL BE RECOVERED…