FINALLY!

I'VE BEEN HOME ABOUT A WEEK, BUT HAVEN'T POSTED SINCE I WAS PLAYING "CATCH UP" (STILL AM, BUT IT'S SLOW W/DOUBLE VISION & 1 TYPING FINGER) 4 THE 9 DAYS WE WERE AWAY. WE HAVE A GREAT SYSTEM NOW, WHERE I COULD ACCESS MY HOME COMPUTER & USED A PROJECTOR IN PLACE OF THE BIG SCREEN LCD THAT'S MY MONITER AT HOME. STILL, THERE'S A DELAY WHEN I USE GOTOMYPC.COM, & THE DELAY IS EVEN BIGGER, DEPENDING ON THE INTERNET CONNECTION I USE. AFTER A WHILE, THERE WAS JUST CERTAIN THINGS I LEFT 4 AT HOME, WHEN THERE WAS NO DELAY ON MY COMP. BUT I HATE 2 THINK HOW MUCH MORE I'D BE BEHIND IF THERE WASN'T A COMP. I COULD USE!!! YES, IT TOOK TWICE AS LONG (I EVEN TYPED 2 FAST 4 THE DELAY!), BUT I WAS ON THE COMP. MORE THAN ANY OTHER VACATION. FELT SO GOOD! U KNOW THOSE FLEETING THOUGHTS U HAVE THAT MAKE U PICK UP THE PHONE? THOSE INSPIRE MANY OF MY EMAILS, & IT WAS NICE 2 SHARE SOME & NOT HAVE 2 REMEMBER THEM FOR 9 DAYS!

I FINALLY GOT TIRED OF DOING WHAT I SHOULD DO, & DID WHAT I WANTED 2 DO ON THURS.: I MADE A SCRAP. PG.—I'LL POST IT SOON. I'M PAYING 4 IT (SAT., I HAD SO MUCH 2 DO, I WASN'T SURE WHERE 2 START), BUT IT KEPT ME SANE!

BET IT'S ODD 2 THINK OF ME AS "BUSY." BET SOME WONDER WHAT I DO. WELL, TRY TYPING EVERYTHING U WANT 2 SAY, W/1 FUNGER, 4 A DAY. THEN, THROW IN SCRAPBOOKS & JOURNALS 4 ME & MY 3 KIDS. ALSO ADD THE FACT THAT I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF AT LEAST 4 PROJECTS 2 MAKE HARDBOUND BOOKS W/ SCRAPBOOKS, I READ ALL DAY (& READING TAKES TWICE AS LONG), I'M STILL A MOM & WIFE, I POST ON HERE, ETC.

KNOW WHAT'S HARD ABOUT TRAVELLING?
THINGS JUST R NOT MADE 4 THE HANDICAPPED00AVERAGE HOMES GAVE STAIRS, THINNER HALLS, SMALL DOORWAYS, ETC. BUT THIS ISN'T LIMITED 2 "AVERAGE"—I'VE BEEN IN MY SHARE OF BATHROOMS THAT R "HANDICAPPED," YET 2 SMALL 4 MY CHAIR! THANK GOODNESS MARK (MK) CAN CARRY ME & LEAVE MY CHAIR OUTSIDE THE STALL!

AT HOME, THINGS R SET UP SO I'M EXTREMELY INDEPENDENT, 4 ME. I LEAVE, & THAT'S STRIPPED AWAY, WHICH IS HARD 4 BOTH MK & I BECAUSE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ALONE ANYMORE, & WE R ACCUSTOMED 2 A DIFF. LIFESTYLE—I MUST DRIVE MARK CRAZY 2 ALWAYS NEED HIM, YET IT STINKS 2 SIT & DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, LIKE I DID WHEN I WAS 1ST HOME FROM THE HOSPITALS! DIFF. IS, I NOW HAVE A POWER (VS. MANUAL) CHAIR, SO AT LEAST I CAN CHANGE MY VIEW!

HOWEVER, WE HAD A SCARE WHERE MY W/C STOPPED WORKING. AT HOME, WE HAVE A REPAIR PLACE & EXTRA (MANUAL) W/C I CAN TEMP. USE, BUT THERE, WE HAD NOTHING. REALITY SET IN ABOUT HOW BAD THAT WAS! FORTUNATELY, AFTER MK & I SAID INDEPENDENT PRATERS IN R HEADS, MY W/C MIRACUOUSLY WORKED AGAIN!

PROB. THE HARDEST THING IS IF I'M GIVEN “PITY LOOKS”. MY BROTHER, WHO IS AWAY FOR 2 YEARS IN FINLAND, SAID, "Many do not have the priviledge of this (ONLY COMMUNICATING W/ME THROUGH EMAIL), and see you as the jenny they see. There is a big difference between the Jenny they see, and the one that is you! "

THIS IS SOOO TRUE! C-ING ME PHYSICALLY, CAN TOTALLY MIS-REPRESENT WHO I AM INSIDE! MAYBE THAT'S WHY I POST—I'M DIFF. HERE & I FEEL I CAN BE ME!

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