VOCALS

I'VE ALSO BEEN MORE VOCAL LATELY (POOR MARK, AS HE WELL KNOWS, I'M MORE VOCAL LYING DOWN IN BED—WHERE I HAVE LESS PRESSURE ON MY STOMACH MUSCLES 2 TAKE THE REQUIRED BREATH). I ALSO HAVE A HARDER TIME SAYING SOMETHING IF I TRY 2 SAY IT, BUT THE OPPOSITE IS ALSO TRUE. (REMEMBER, I WAKE BETWEEN 4-6 AM & TRY 2 QUIETLY LAY THERE—& EVEN SOME1 WHO CAN'T SPEAK, IRONICALLY, I CAN BE LOUD–& THE QUIETER I TRY 2 B, THE LOUDER I AM!)

WHEN I SPEAK, SOMETIMES IT'S HARD 2 RECOGNIZE, SINCE I MOSTLY USE VOWELS, BUT HERE R A FEW NEW THINGS I'VE SAID THIS WEEK: AMEN (A-EN), LOTS ,ORE OF "UH-HUH'S," MOVE (OVE), ,"ETC. I OFTEN SAY I LOVE U, (THIS COMES SOMETIMES AS I SIGN IT—MY KIDS KNOW THE SLURRED "I O U" WELL), THANK U (THIS COMES SOMETIMES AS I SIGN IT), HI (I), BYE (IE), FIA (IA), MARK (MA), DONE (ONE, BUT SOUNDS LIKE A GRUNT)— I HAVE BEEN SAYING "OW" 4 A WHILE. (U'D BE SHOCKED HOW MUCH MORE THINGS HURT WHEN U CAN'T SAY "OW!")

I RECALL BEING JEALOUS OF THOSE WHO SIGN BECAUSE THEY COULD GRUNT 2 GET ATTENTION. SOMETIMES I CAN NOW DO IT, 2. IT'S WONDERFUL, SINCE MY HAND IS RARELY NOTICED. I HAVE A SPEAKING PROGRAM ON A LAPTOP, BUT HARDLY USE IT. THE KEYBOARD IS GREY W/WHITE LETTERS–HARD 2 C (NOT ENOUGH CONTRAST), I TYPE LABORIOUSLY SLOW, & HATE MOVING W/IT BECAUSE THE LAPTOP FEELS LIKE IT WILL FALL. STILL, EVEN THAT HAS 2 BE HANDED 2 U &, 4 ME, B SET UP W/A KEYGAURD (WHICH IS ESSENTIALLY A PIECE OF PLASTIC SO MY HAND CAN REST WHILE I TYPE & NOT PUSH KEYS–IT HAS HOLES DRILLED FOR KEYS. )

I KNOW IT'S OFTEN SAID THAT U'LL NEVER GET MY SPEAKING VOICE BACK IF I DIDN’T USE IT. LOOK AT NEW BABIES. WHAT ISN'T SAID IS U'UR (YOUR) VOICE IS WEIRD AND U'RE EFFORTS R UNRECOGNIZABLE (HOWEVER, IF I RARELY SPEAK, THE WORD IS RECOGNIZED BY CONTEXT CLUES, MOTIVATING ME 2 KEEP TRYING 2 SAYING IT). IT'S ALSO FRUSTRATING 2 NOT B ABLE 2 MAKE THE WORDS U WANT 2. MAYBE I'M COMFORTABLE, IN AN ODD WAY, SPELLING & KNOWING MY WORDS WILL B FIGURED OUT, BUT I DO TRY 2 SAY WORDS I'VE HAD SUCCESS WITH.

MARK TOLD ME 2 “JUST TALK” (BABBLE). BUT, NOT ONLY DO I NEED SOMETHING 2 BABBLE ABOUT, BUT IF I “JUST TALK” PEOPLE FREAK & ASK ME WHAT I NEED, & THEN I HAVE 2 DEAL W/THE HASSLE 2 EXPLAIN I'M BABBLING. I KNOW I NEED 2 DO MORE, SO I “SING” & UPLOADED SONGS 2 MY COMP. SO I CAN PRACTICE “SINGING” WHEN I’M HOME ALONE.

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