Do you find you are somewhat apprehensive/afraid to do things you did before even though you can do them now, even if it takes longer?

NOT REALLY, BUT THE STROKE INCREASED MY ANXIETY LEVELS. WHILE I’M NOT APPREHENSIVE ABOUT TRYING THINGS THAT I DID PRE-STROKE, IF THE EXPIERENCE IS SOMETHING NEW 2 ME, ANXIETY MAY GET IN THE WAY.

& IF IT INVOLVES PBA, IT’S A YES. NOT FUN 2 MAKE A SCENE & SOB, IF I’M JUST SLIGHTLY FRUSTRATED OR ANNOYED. & I AM INFURIATED IF I LAUGH AT A MISBEHAVING CHILD OR WHEN SOME1 UPSETS ME! SOME EMOTIONAL STUFF IS JUST EASIER 2 HIDE FROM. MY PBA PILL, NEUDEXTA HELPS 2 A POINT, BUT MY BODY SOMETIMES SEEMS 2 BE “GETTING USED TO IT.” OR MAYBE I’M EITHER 4GETTING HOW BAD IT WAS W/O IT, OR I’M “PUSHING THE LIMITS!” LOL

BUT USUALLY,I LIKE CHALLENGES & IT IS A CHALLENGE 2 CONQUER THINGS 1-HANDED, OR TO BE STRONG ENOUGH! I LOVE FEELING THE SUCCESS, & AM 2 STUBBORN 2 GIVE IN. & IT GETS OLD ALWAYS ASKING FOR HELP!

FUNNY: TUESDAY, MY SON WAS SITTING ON A CURB AT SEA WORLD, & I COULD’VE ASKED HIM 2 MOVE MY LEFT FOOT BACK, ONTO THE FOOTREST, BUT INSTEAD, I CAREFULLY DROVE TOWARDS THE CURB, 2 PUSH MY OWN FOOT BACK. MY SON COMMENTED HOW I COULD’VE JUST ASKED, & THAT IS TRUE…BUT I DIDN’T ASK. SOME OF THAT WAS MY TODDLER-LIKE ATTITUDE OF, “I WANT 2 DO IT MYSELF,” & SOME WAS THAT I JUST GET TIRED OF ASKING 4 HELP W/EVERYTHING, AND SOME IS JUST LIKING THE CHALLENGE OF FINDING A CREATIVE SOLUTION!

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