NOT REALLY, BUT THE STROKE INCREASED MY ANXIETY LEVELS. WHILE I’M NOT APPREHENSIVE ABOUT TRYING THINGS THAT I DID PRE-STROKE, IF THE EXPIERENCE IS SOMETHING NEW 2 ME, ANXIETY MAY GET IN THE WAY.

& IF IT INVOLVES PBA, IT’S A YES. NOT FUN 2 MAKE A SCENE & SOB, IF I’M JUST SLIGHTLY FRUSTRATED OR ANNOYED. & I AM INFURIATED IF I LAUGH AT A MISBEHAVING CHILD OR WHEN SOME1 UPSETS ME! SOME EMOTIONAL STUFF IS JUST EASIER 2 HIDE FROM. MY PBA PILL, NEUDEXTA HELPS 2 A POINT, BUT MY BODY SOMETIMES SEEMS 2 BE “GETTING USED TO IT.” OR MAYBE I’M EITHER 4GETTING HOW BAD IT WAS W/O IT, OR I’M “PUSHING THE LIMITS!” LOL

BUT USUALLY,I LIKE CHALLENGES & IT IS A CHALLENGE 2 CONQUER THINGS 1-HANDED, OR TO BE STRONG ENOUGH! I LOVE FEELING THE SUCCESS, & AM 2 STUBBORN 2 GIVE IN. & IT GETS OLD ALWAYS ASKING FOR HELP!

FUNNY: TUESDAY, MY SON WAS SITTING ON A CURB AT SEA WORLD, & I COULD’VE ASKED HIM 2 MOVE MY LEFT FOOT BACK, ONTO THE FOOTREST, BUT INSTEAD, I CAREFULLY DROVE TOWARDS THE CURB, 2 PUSH MY OWN FOOT BACK. MY SON COMMENTED HOW I COULD’VE JUST ASKED, & THAT IS TRUE…BUT I DIDN’T ASK. SOME OF THAT WAS MY TODDLER-LIKE ATTITUDE OF, “I WANT 2 DO IT MYSELF,” & SOME WAS THAT I JUST GET TIRED OF ASKING 4 HELP W/EVERYTHING, AND SOME IS JUST LIKING THE CHALLENGE OF FINDING A CREATIVE SOLUTION!