U know it’s been too long when the website doesn’t recognize u when u log on…

Actually, I keep attempting to log on,  & when I have trouble, I think, “I’ll deal with it later.”  I’ve finally found later! (of course it was today!)

I tried to log in December to talk about how awesome it was to have all of my kids here for Christmas & New Years.  Many times I recalled how difficult it was (at times) to have our kids so close together, but now I was delighted to see how well they interacted!  & New Years gave me a glimpse into heaven, as we spent the night also with Maddie & Davis’ Families.

I tried to log on again after taking a Disney Cruise in January, & after attending the rodeo about a week ago…but I was determined to post on my website by my 20th stroke-a-versary!  So here I am

As I contemplated how to “commemorate” such a special day, some memories came to mind.  These memories prompted what I chose to do.  I just wanted to attend the temple, & spend time with my grandson!  In my eyes, the temple is where everything “started” (A few days before, it was in the temple where I received the impression that something big was coming).  The temple has also been a source of strength (from my first blinked words, “go to the temple” & continues to be now), & is a symbol of my belief that “families are forever.”

I don’t know if Mark recalls this conversation, but many times that first year, I told him that I wished I was dead.  One time, he asked something like, “But aren’t u glad u are with me here?” & I said no, I’d rather wait for him “up there.” & he retorted with something about if I’m here, I can see my kids get married & see my grandkids.  I didn’t care.  Living like this to be a grandma?  That sounded like torture!

I  know God heard me, because I haven’t spent those 20 years without growth – spiritual, emotional, AND physical growth! And, unlike before, I am glad to be a forever family with Mark, my kids, my kids spouses, & to be a grandma (mamaw)!